Sometimes humans come back to themselves at a moment’s notice.
“I got along with Riko…I can’t face Hikari.”
I am enjoying this trip with Riko in a very natural way, but Riko is the one who bullied my sister and she is an enemy to her.
Is it okay to get along with Riko like that?
I keep asking myself the same question, but I can’t come up with an answer.
After thinking so much, I could not come up with an answer, so I decided to make the phone call to Hikari that was originally on my schedule.
“Sayaka san, I’m going outside for a while to make a phone call.”
“Okay, the bath will be ready soon, so don’t take too long〜”
As soon as I stepped outside, I called Hikari using the free call feature of the messaging app.
“Hello ! Onii chan ! What’s wrong?”
Hikari picked up the phone before I could hear the call.
“No, I just wanted to make sure you didn’t get lonely. I know Mom and Dad aren’t home yet.”
Hikari opened her mouth gravely after a short silence.
“……I miss you so much, my heart aches just from not having Onii chan around. Even today, I’ve been thinking about you all day.”
“……I see, I’m sorry for leaving you alone.”
Even though I had gotten Hikari’s permission before going on this trip, it was impossible for me not to feel guilty after hearing things like this.
“No, it’s okay. I’m very happy
that Onii chan called me like this !”
Perhaps because I was impressed by Hikari’s bravery, the words of apology unintentionally dripped from my mouth.
It’s no wonder she feels confused when I suddenly apologize. So I knew this was what I was going to be asked, but when I tried to say it, the words just wouldn’t come out properly.
…..But I have to tell her.
“I’m here in Guam and I’m getting along with Riko. I don’t even think about Hikari’s feelings. Even though I know that it makes me feel bad for you……it sucks.”
A few moments of pause.
“…..Onii chan, that’s terrible. You haven’t thought about my feelings at all.”
A chill ran down my spine.
Honestly, I had this sweet, really sweet feeling that maybe Hikari would forgive me.
“…..Sorry. Please forgive me.”
I didn’t want Hikari to hate me, and that thought dominated my mind as I unbearably begged Hikari to forgive me.
Then Hikaro paused for a moment and—
“The worst, you’re the worst, Onii chan. So, please take responsibility and enjoy your trip with Riko chan.”
I don’t understand. Hikari’s statement is incoherent.
“…Don’t you hate it, Hikari?”
“Of course I don’t like it. I really want to stop Onii chan from befriending other girls.”
“Then why is it that–“My greatest pleasure is when Onii chan enjoys himself and is happy.”
Hikari interrupted me and insisted.
“I want Onii chan to be happy, I want you to have fun, I want you to smile……that’s all I want.’
I am speechless.
“When Onii chan asked me if he could go on the trip, it was a fleeting moment, but it really bothered me to the point that my brain was fried. After much worrying and agonizing, I gave the go-ahead. As I said before, Onii chan had always wanted to go abroad. I wanted to give Onii chan a special experience,……even if it was with Riko chan. …Also, I can see that Onii chan is excited about his first overseas trip, so I thought he might end up becoming friends with Riko chan. That’s why I was prepared for this from the beginning, so you don’t have to worry about it.”
……Even at the expense of herself, she is putting me first.
I feel the love from Hikari fiercely, and at the same time, my guilt toward her grows.
“No, I can’t say I don’t care. I’ll make it up to you when I get home.”
“…..Okay. I’m looking forward to it, all right? …..But like I said earlier, you have to enjoy your trip properly. And don’t get too distant from Riko chan. That would ruin the trip.”
Being told by Hikari to get along well with Riko ! I felt a little uncomfortable as it seemed like she was saying that to me, but I honestly accepted it.
“….Okay. I’ll keep that in mind. …..Well then, it’s time for me to go, okay?”
“Yeah, good night, Onii chan….ah I forgot to mention one more thing.”
“……Hm? What’s wrong?”
“I said you could enjoy the trip with Riko chan, but I never said it was okay to have an affair.”
…On the day I heard that chilling, low voice, I had no choice but to stand in front of my phone and shudder.
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