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“You’re so sweet to pick up lunch for me. I love you.”
I murmur on the bed in the infirmary, my head still a little heavy.
His unchanging kindness and free love that asks for nothing in return fills me up.
But at the same time, I feel lonely.
Even if it is only for a few minutes, his absence makes my heart ache again.
“……Don’t leave me.”
Alone time is hard for me.
I was already on the verge of tears when Sensei offered me a cup of warm tea.
“Here, drink it and calm down.”
“Thank you very much.”
“Hyori, could he possibly be the cause of your hyperventilating today?”
“……I don’t know.”
“Ah, I see. Well, it’s not that I can’t understand those feelings of instability that are typical of adolescence, but if you’re causing too much trouble, he will hate you.”
“Tokiwa kun won’t hate me……”
“Haha, I guess it was an unnecessary intrusion. But for now, you should try your best to attend classes properly. Even if you become a housewife, you still have to wait for the man to come home from work. Isn’t it nice for the other person if you believe and wait?”
“……”
I could at least understand that Sensei’s meddlesome lecture was still correct in what she was saying.
I have a hard time believing anything.
That’s why, once I calm down, I can kind of understand that I won’t feel safe unless I’m with him all the time and keep an eye on him.
I understand, but even if I know, there’s nothing I can do about it.
Even now, I want to fly to him immediately.
“…..Sensei, I have to go.”
“Hmm, where to? He’ll bring you your lunch, right?”
“No, I have to. I have to go.”
“……Okay. Well, take it easy.”
“Yes.”
Perhaps because Sensei had seen me often in the infirmary since I was in the first grade, she seemed to understand my lack of words, so she nodded and helped me out of bed.
I then turned my heavy steps toward the classroom.
He just went to pick up my lunch, but he is late.
Maybe he’s in trouble with the girls in class.
If that were the case, he might have been so absorbed in conversation with them that he forgot all about me.
When I think of that, I can’t stand still.
I hurried to the classroom, which I usually don’t want to go near.
“Where are you, Tokiwa kun?”
As I wandered up to the classroom, I noticed that there was a lot of noise in the classroom.
I hate people who get into silly conversations like this during lunch break.
The conversation is always about something disrespectful or bad-mouthing others.
I have closed my ears and heart because I don’t like it.
I have always believed that everyone else is only thinking about themselves.
Even my parents.
Even when I used to cry that I was lonely and wanted them to be with me, they chose to work.
Even the people I thought were my friends.
They thought I was just a decoration or something.
But Tokiwa kun was different.
He always took good care of me.
He was always kind to me, never asking for anything in return.
I don’t think I will ever meet someone like that again.
My one and only.
I wonder if he is in the classroom.
“……Ah.”
I opened the door at the back of the classroom and there he was.
However, he sat on his butt and looked at me with a troubled look on his face.
Besides,
“Why is that in someone else’s possession?”
My lunch.
The lunch I had lovingly made just for him.
Today’s side dishes are dashimaki, spinach salad, and rice balls that I made with great care.
Why is that in the hands of someone other than Tokiwa kun?
“H-Hyori,……t-this stalker was trying to take your stuff without permission, so.”
“……Stalker?”
What’s a stalker?
Ah, that thing that persistently follows you around even if you don’t like?
Are you trying to say that Tokiwa kun is my stalker?
What’s that? Is he crazy?
If it was mutual love, you wouldn’t call me a stalker, would you?
Instead, you are the stalker.
I hope you die.
Should I kill him?
No, first of all.
Give me back Tokiwa kun’s lunch.
“Just give it back.”
“W-well……I mean, he said he didn’t even have your contact information, so I thought it was suspicious”
“Give it back”
“Eek…….”
I snatched my precious paper bag back from the man who was babbling nonsense in front of me.
Then I looked at Tokiwa kun, who was still on his butt on the floor, and he looked at me with great concern.
“Senpai……um, are you feeling better already?”
“Yeah, I’m fine. But there are a lot of people, so I guess I should go back to the infirmary.”
“Y-yes.”
I naturally reached out my hand to him.
He stands up, holding my cold hand on the floor.
I like Tokiwa kun’s slightly cold hands, too.
It’s like he matched my body temperature, and I feel like I can feel his thoughtfulness.
I want to hold his hand and go somewhere.
Not to the infirmary, not at home, but somewhere far away.
These feelings run through me in an instant and I feel so happy.
Together with him all the time.
Just the thought of that makes me forget the fatigue I’ve been feeling for a while now.
“Let’s go.”
I pull him by the hand and we leave the classroom.
I didn’t care about the noise around me, the loud cursing, or the screams of amazement.
Even in school, I held his hand.
Finally, I felt a little satisfied.
“…..Senpai, um.”
“Is there something wrong?”
“N-no. Erm, is that okay?”
“What?”
“Because there was a lot of fuss in the classroom.”
Tokiwa kun looked back at the classroom anxiously.
I like the breadth and depth of his heart that even after doing something like that, he still worries about the scumbags.
But.
“I don’t care about those people.”
I didn’t like it.
I hated my classmates and even the way Tokiwa kun worried about them.
Tokiwa kun needs to look out for only me.
“…Did something happen in class?”
“No, not really. I just don’t have anyone I get along with. But don’t worry about it.”
“I see. I understand.”
Tokiwa kun immediately turned to me.
That’s fine.
If it’s not like that, it’s no good.
I must always be at the center of the scene reflected in Tokiwa kun’s eyes.
I wish everyone else would go away.
Then I wouldn’t have to worry about anything.
Everyone.
“I wish they were dead…….”
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