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“…… is this the person you’re meeting up with?”
I asked Tomoki in a trembling voice.
-Was Tomoki meeting up with the person I most didn’t want to meet?
Before Tomoki could answer that question, it came by and told me.
“Thank goodness, I thought I would never see you again. …… I’ve been wanting to apologize to Kokonoe-kun for a long time.”
I don’t understand the emotion in this.
“…… you wanted to apologize?”
“Yes. I’m sorry for …… what happened! But I really didn’t know …….”
You didn’t know ……? What the hell is she talking about?
I look at it with the eyes of something unidentifiable.
Something like that happened, and even if it was, she was definitely the cause of it.
For example, even if she didn’t want to be involved, if she really feels bad about it, why can’t she make amends by staying away from me again?
I’ll just tell her that.
“…… If you really feel that way, don’t ever show your face to me again.”
“! Kokonoe-kun,…….”
“W-Wait a minute. Shota!”
Tomoki stepped in between them, as if to protect her as her face contorted in pain.
I asked Tomoki, feeling bothered by the clutter in my head.
“Are you on that side, too?”
“No, I’m not! I beg you, calm down and listen to me!”
What did he want me to ask?
He was a friend of mine who got along with a girl I wanted to avoid, that’s all.
“Rio really regrets what happened. That is why she is out of their group now. She came to me, who was good friends with Shota, to apologize and asked me to help her make things right.”
I look at Tomoki who said that in one breath.
“Is that all?” With cold eyes that conveyed the meaning…
Tomoki gulped as if frightened by it, let it out, and then continued.
“….. I finally got to meet Shota too, and you forgave me, didn’t you? But I wanted to let you see Rio only after I cleared up the misunderstanding. …… Damn! That didn’t work out so well. …….”
Tomoki, who apparently had no intention of letting me see her today, swore spitefully at his own bad luck.
After listening to it all, I realized that Tomoki, who was entangled with this girl, wanted me to make up with her…
“…… got it.”
“Shota!”
“Kokonoe-kun!”
The two of them make cheerful noises at my words.
—Enough. Something is off with these guys. It doesn’t matter to me whether I forgive them or not.
What’s important is …….
“I forgive you both. I don’t care anymore, I don’t want you to touch me. I’ll forgive you if you stay out of my life …….”
“Shota, is that ……?”
Suddenly, Tomoki looked at me with a stunned expression.
Without feeling any emotion towards Tomoki, I just looked back at him and said.
“I don’t care what kind of relationship you guys have without me. I’m going to tell you one more time, I forgive you and I don’t want you to get involved. …… That’s all I want from you guys.”
Other than that, there’s nothing more I want to say and I walk away.
I feel sick, I can’t wait to go home and be alone. ……
I was about to walk away, but it stopped me by grabbing my arm with both hands.
“Wait! Me and Wada-kun don’t have that kind of relationship!”
–I was thinking that, but she stopped me by grabbing my arms and holding them.
“No, do as you please. ……”
“I promised to meet Wada-kun today, not just the two of us, but with the people in Wada-kun’s group. …… I’m telling you the truth. I came to pick up Wada-kun, but everyone else is waiting for me at the station.”
I have no idea what she is talking about.
What is this girl trying so desperately to make a point?
I couldn’t understand what she was saying at all, and as I was listening to her, she started to say something horrifying.
“Me, I couldn’t say it at that time because I was afraid of everyone’s eyes, …… but the truth is, about Kokonoe-kun …….”
“Stop it!”
I shook her hand off with all my might.
Still, this girl didn’t stop.
“I-I know it seems like it’s too late now! But please! I want to try again with Kokonoe kun! ”
“……!”
I felt deeply sickened.
How can you say that?
After telling her not to get involved in all this, how could she not understand?
Perhaps mistaking my stunned state for distress, she smiled and closed the distance between us.
“Don’t worry, I won’t betray you again. I will never hurt Kokonoe-kun. Because I finally realized what was important to me. ……”
She tried to take my hand gently, but I was surprised and withdrew my hand.
“Don’t …… be scared okay?”
Don’t be unreasonable, I thought frankly.
Then it occurred to me that I had never felt such disgust for Sakurae.
“…… Sakurae, huh?”
“Sakurae? ……Who, that?”
The name I mentioned unexpectedly, she reacts and makes a dubious expression.
“……a girl who has nothing to do with you.”
For some reason, a smile came to my face.
“This is the last time. It doesn’t matter to me whether this is Tomoki or anyone else, even if you have a relationship with him. I’m not interested. Therefore, you don’t have anything to do with me anymore. …… Don’t interfere. You can forget about me. In fact, forget about me. It’s better for both of us.”
“T-That…..! Kokonoe-kun, …….”
She looks at me with the eyes of an abandoned dog or cat.
However, I still don’t feel any emotion…
This time I will leave the place without looking back.
“……Sakurae.”
I couldn’t even think about Sakurae’s name as I gritted my teeth, calling out Sakurae’s name as if cursing.
“Haa …….”
I finally get home and sit down on my bed.
I’m tired ……. So much so that I don’t want to go outside anymore during this vacation.
I took out the book I had bought but now I don’t feel like reading it, so I pile it on my desk again and lay down.
(Why is it that I’m surrounded by people who don’t listen to me? …….)
Or more accurately, ‘don’t listen.’ …….
But I’m surprised to find myself less upset than I thought I would be after meeting that thing.
The trauma is still there.
But, even though it was so painful to remember it, now I really don’t care about it.
If anything, I feel more sorry that Tomoki has changed. ……
Tomoki was a good guy.
Maybe the fundamentals haven’t changed.
Maybe Tomoki never did anything to bring me and that girl closer.
The reason for this change is probably that she got closer to Tomoki without my knowledge, and he became as important to her as I was to me.
…I don’t care if he becomes important
In any case, if he tries to get me involved with me again, Tomoki will become an object that I want to keep a distance from.
It can’t be helped.
As I was thinking about this while savoring the feeling of losing a friend, my phone started shaking.
For a moment, I thought it was from Tomoki, but then I thought about it and realized that I haven’t unblocked him yet.
I guess I don’t have to unblock …… anymore.
I took out my phone and checked the message.
The name on the screen said, “Sakurae Sana.”
The name on the screen made my face relax.
(Really, this girl………)
As usual, Sakurae is sending me random messages.
I’m beginning to think she’s mistaking my talk room for a diary.
[My mom taught me how to cook today. I want to cook for Shota-kun someday, so I’ll practice a lot during the vacations for that time.]
[What is Shota-kun’s favorite food?]
Normally, I would not reply to these and the message would stop.
But today, I was very tired and replied to the message in a somewhat whimsical way.
[I want to eat fried chicken.]
As expected, my phone starts shaking repeatedly as soon as I reply to it.
I felt like Sakurae was talking to me with a big smile on her face, and I closed my eyes.
(TL/N : SAKURAE LETS GOOO)
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So the trauma is pretty much something like a fake date as a punishment game or along that line. That’s pretty bland to be honest. I hope there’s more to it that will be revealed in the future.
At least Sakurae yandere is just the perfect balance
Fu.. so it’s the usual smol but traumatizing thing.~
I guess that counts~?
Idk, I never got any dates with a guy~
From the looks of it, it seems like he was bullied because he was close to her.