Episode 5 – Unexpected

Misaki sensei may be a person to watch out for. As I was secretly shivering with fear, Azuma senpai opened her mouth.

“But still, did you have something bad happen to you again, running away to the club room?”

“No, nothing in particular happened. I’m just tired of being a teacher all the time. This is the only place in the school where I can relax, so I came here.”

“You don’t sound like a teacher. Are you allowed to reveal your feelings to your students?”

“I know I’m not supposed to. But I’m only in my second year as a working adult. I was a university student until recently, and I can’t say, [Well, I’m going to be a member of society now, so I’m going to change my mind once and for all.] something like that.”

“Well, it’s not like I don’t understand.”

“You will understand better when you become a member of society, Azuma san. Things like the fact that you can’t become an adult just by getting older and that your mind can’t catch up with the flow of time right away. I also realize now that even teachers were human beings.”

Misaki sensei takes a seat next to me and leans back against the back of the chair. But I guess that must be quite a strain. When she shows a gap like this, it makes me feel a little bit better.

[Haa. If I had been alone with Fujisaki kun, it would have been a much better change of pace. I knew Azuma san was there, and I couldn’t ask someone who is working hard on her work to leave. I want to do things with Fujisaki kun that I shouldn’t do in the clubroom. Teachers and students have a forbidden relationship at school……. Good, this is good. I don’t want this to be just a fantasy.]

I look sideways at Misaki sensei, and she smiles at me.

“What’s wrong? You’ve been looking at me a lot today.”

“Oh, no, it’s nothing.”

[That gaze just now…..what was that? don’t think it’s the eyes of a boy in love. Did I do something wrong? Or is it not like that? But I’m glad he’s looking. I wish he could see all of it.]

W-what do you mean, all of it?

I understand, but I don’t think I should understand. Especially here.

Strangely nervous, I changed the subject.

“……Uh, Sensei, what kind of manga do you usually draw at home?”

Misaki Sensei is not just another manga club advisor, but someone who can really draw manga. She is not a professional, but she is a very talented person, different from a mere amateur. She was involved in such activities when she was a student, and she also enjoys cosplay and other activities. For some people, she might be an ideal teacher.

“Hm? Didn’t I tell you before? I told you that the things I often draw can’t be shown at school. It’s usually forbidden.”

“I was just wondering what kind of genre is in the eighteen banned category. Is it BL?”

“I don’t draw BL. Not all otaku girls draw BL. As for me, I like to read them, though, you know?”

“Oh, I see……”

[What kind of mindset is it that you care about what I draw? Are you wondering if it will depict the forbidden love between a teacher and a student? Does that mean you care about me…..? The next time we can be alone, I’ll ask you out…….?]

I wonder if what I’m hearing is really the voice of her heart. Is Misaki sensei really thinking this way?

“Fujisaki-kun…do you get nervous when you hear that a nice adult draws 18+ manga or that she likes BL?”

“No, I don’t think so. When you become an adult, it’s not like the things you liked when you were a student suddenly become unimportant. I think it is a good thing to be able to like what you like even as an adult. I want to be like that in the future.”

“I see. I’m glad to hear you say that.”

[I’m glad you are so understanding of people like me, Fujisaki kun.

Parents would say things like, [How long will you keep drawing? You’re no longer a child.] they have no reason to complain when I have a good job and make good money.]

Sensei’s expression remained smiling. However, she seems to be thinking about a lot of things inside.

Suddenly, I wonder if this flow can be used to confirm that what I’m hearing is the voice of the heart.

“…Are there people around you who say bad things about you, Sensei?”

“It’s not necessarily a bad thing, it’s more like [You won’t be a child forever, so why don’t you graduate from drawing?] I understand that, and I’m only doing this as a hobby or a side job, so I don’t mind.”

“Oh, I see.”

I can almost confirm that this is the voice of her heart. My own imagination would never match Sensei’s inner feelings to this extent.

As I was secretly nodding my head in my mind, Azuma senpai’s eyes suddenly sharpened.

“Sensei’s parents are terrible. I can’t believe there are still parents like that. What do the parents’ generation do anyway, but drink, play golf, or watch baseball games, right? Or just travel to waste time and money? Even if it wasn’t, it’s funny to denigrate someone’s creative activities when they haven’t done much of anything.”

“Ahaha, that’s really true. My father watches TV and drinks alcohol on weeknights and spends his weekends relaxing or driving.

He calls what I do child’s play, but he lives a less productive life than his children. I feel like I’m doing what most adults do, and I’m relieved to be able to say that I’m not a child anymore, that I’m a grown-up.”

“In a way, I feel sorry for them. They think that such a life is happy, or they think that not wanting their own happiness is a respectable thing to do as an adult.”

“Well, it’s a generation that’s raised that way, or was raised by a generation that was raised that way, so it can’t be helped. Besides, there is also the aspect that the generation that thought only about working hard has made Japan grow. You can’t deny it out of hand. We both.”

“……Yes, that’s right. Maybe it’s mutual.”

Misaki sensei grins fearlessly. I was wondering what that smile was.

[I’m pretty cool right now, aren’t I? I feel like an adult woman, don’t I? Fujisaki kun, have you fallen for me?]

Apparently, her head was full of me. I was flattered, but also quite surprised, and her coolness was diminished by a few percent.

We chatted for about ten minutes after that, and then Misaki sensei stood up.

“I’ll see you after school.”

[Ah, I’m going to miss you, Fujisaki kun. But I can’t linger around here forever.

Even if I marry Fujisaki kun, I have to make sure that I can provide for him properly. Let’s do our best.]

Why am I supposed to be provided for !?

How do you think I look to you, Misaki sensei? Am I that unreliable?

I couldn’t help but question the voice in my mind, and Misaki sensei left behind a delicious scent.

She is full of adult charm, and I’m glad that she likes me, but I’m somewhat more puzzled.

“…..Sensei, she was in a good mood.”

“Eh, is that so? She is always in such a good mood.”

“…Usually she’s a little more lazy. Today she was talkative and smiled a lot. It’s weird.”

“Hmm…….”

I thought it was the same as usual, but I wonder if by usual her means that Sensei always had a slightly different attitude toward me and others.

Sensei, since when have you been conscious of me? How did it all start?

I’m curious about a lot of things, but of course I don’t have the answers. But if I can listen to the inner voice, then I will probably know the answer naturally at some point. I just have to wait and see.

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