Episode 7 – Uncomfortable Feeling

I am Shirai Saori, a first-year high school student.

Recently, my childhood friend has been strange.

I used to play with my childhood friend Ichiryu (Ikkun). We used to talk a lot, but recently, he doesn’t even ask me to play with him. I’ve asked him to join me on SNS because I just want to share what’s popular right now.

I can’t have the same topic with pin something as he called it.

He always responds with some kind of reasoning, but it pisses me off again.

It wasn’t like that until I was in the second grade of middle school. We had a more casual relationship.

When I entered high school, I decided to make my high school debut and tried to do my best in various ways, so I took care of my fashion and changed my glasses to contact lenses.

I even dyed my hair a bit.

When I was talking with my childhood friend Ikkun, my new friends said this to me.

[Isn’t he kinda dull? He’s kind of lame.]

When I was told that, I thought to myself, [Ikkun isn’t lame at all !]

………If he cultivates himself, he will shine,, but now……. honestly, he’s kinda lame and sometimes he stinks…..

Then, I started a makeover plan for Ikkun. First of all, I started with his appearance !

Since his parents went abroad, his clothes are shabby. I can also smell it. He might not have hung his laundry out to dry right away.

So I told him to keep his hair short and suggested muscle training because he has been gaining weight lately. When he was in choir in middle school, he was getting better and better at singing.

When you start doing something like that, you get better and better at it and get praised for it. I started to pay attention to my childhood friend from the time I was in the third grade of middle school, but since he became a loner, he became lazy.

But me, as his childhood friend, knows him.

Ikkun is the kind of person who gets into things once he starts to do them. If I give him a chance, he will get better.

And so, Ikkun will grew up to my liking. He’s kind of cool, isn’t he? Even if you put your favorite relatives? And then, in order to show everyone how cool my childhood friend has become, I invited him to karaoke, but he turned me down…

“It’s fine if we go with people I know…….”

He said that, but there’s no point in going with just someone you know…..

I wonder what to do. One day Ikkun called me to come to behind the school bulding.

“Saori, I want you to go out with me with marriage in mind. I want us to have a relationship where we can support each other.”

“Eh……..it’s not possible.”

(Because it’s too heavy to do that with marriage in mind from the very beginning. We’re still in high school you know?)

“I see……..can you tell me why it’s not possible?”

“Erm. Maybe because I prefer someone who’s older?

(If that’s the case…….then  we can have a proper marriage)

“That’s…….not something that I can do…………… Then from now on, I guess you can say that we’re friends and childhood friends?”

“Yeah. Of course.”

…..I see, Ikkun was thinking about marrying me, I was surprised but happy.

—I thought so.

After that, I felt so awkward that it was hard for me to talk to him. I don’t know if it’s the same for Ikkun, but he doesn’t talk to me much. It felt so lonely……and in the end we didn’t get to go to karaoke either.

One day, in class, he was enjoying chatting with a cute gyaru-like girl sitting next to him.

What’s more, she said that they’re going to karaoke now?　

What in the world is going on !? Affair ??

As I was thinking about that, I unintentionally questioned Ikkun and told him.

“Then, can I go to McDonald’s too !?”

“No. I have to refuse this time. Right now……I want to talk to Rina.”

And so, I was rejected again. He doesn’t want to talk to me today……..I mean, why is he calling that girl by her name? Why !?

“I’ll ask you out again ! ! ! Remember that ！！！!”

“Yeah, ask me again.”

I think I should invite him again another day.

I don’t know what my childhood friend is thinking anymore.

I’m confused…….I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep comfortably tonight in this state.

That’s right ! Let’s sleep over at Ikkun’s house after a long time.

If I do that, I’m sure it will get better.

Thinking that, I sent a message that I was going to stay in Ikkun’s parents place and left immediately.

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I arrived at Ikkun’s house. He hasn’t come home yet.

……How long are you spending time at McDonald’s?

I was so curious so I messaged him with a mushy feeling.

Saori: Hey. Where are you right now?　What are you doing with Yamamoto san?

Ichi: We’re at McDonald’s. I told you earlier.

Ichi: But I’m supposed to go to karaoke with Rina now.

Huh !?!?!?

How in the world did that happen !?

You confessed to me the other day ! !

What’s going on !　Are you two-timing me !?

I don’t understand. I don’t understand.

I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.

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