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Suddenly, my vision brightens all at once.
“Hm……where am I?”
The familiar living room of my rented room.
I stood stunned on the carpet in the middle of the room.
I wasn’t even sleeping, so why did I feel as if I just woke up?
It seems like I was somewhere else until just now…..but I can’t remember.
On the contrary, I feel as if my back and forth memories are completely missing.
(Somehow, I feel strange.)
I’m not quite sure.
I feel like there was something important—
“……Like I was sad or happy.”
I’m not sure.
This indescribable feeling has stuck to the back of my chest.
Still, I couldn’t just stand there forever.
I went to the door of the living room to wash my face for the time being.
Just then, the door opened and a woman appeared.
“Oh, what’s the matter, Hiiyo? Why are you just standing there like that?”
Why is Kisara san here?
Moreover, instead of wearing outerwear, she was wearing fashionable gray and white loungewear.
“Hmm, I was just thinking why are you here, Kisara san.”
“That’s a funny thing to say. You let me stay here yesterday because it was close to where we split up.”
……Ah, I see.
Come to think of it, yesterday, after work, my house was close, so she came to stay.
“Besides, your tone of voice has changed somehow…..”
The atmosphere, too, she said.
Kisara san comes closer to me and puts her face close to mine.
“T-that’s not true !”
Right, why am I talking like this?
But strangely enough, I don’t feel uncomfortable.
Whether I’m behaving politely or not—I can tell the difference. I can clearly understand which is which.
I think now.
Before I knew it, I had found myself.
Why? Why is that? I couldn’t even find it myself.
“Is that so? I feel like you’ve gone back to the old you….well, that’s fine. You should get ready too.”
“Eh, get ready?”
“You’re going to work today, right? With Misaki Aoi.”
“!?”
The moment I heard those words, my heart was suddenly hot.
I don’t know why this is. But when I realized…..my feet were moving on their own.
“H-hey, Hiiyo !?”
I can hear Kisara san’s panicked voice from my back as I hurriedly ran out of the living room.
But I ignored it, put on my shoes, opened the front door and ran out.
I got off the elevator, picked up a cab on the main street, and headed straight to the “Fortissimo” office.
As I entered the entrance, various voices reached my ears from all around me.
Was I dressed strangely as I hurriedly ran out of the door? I don’t know that, but it doesn’t matter.
(Where……!?)
Where can I find you?
As I was thinking that, I saw a familiar face at the entrance.
“Excuse me !”
“O-oh……it’s you, Hiiyo chan. What’s wrong?”
The person wearing the suit and looking confused must have been someone named Kanabe san.
As I recall, he was Misaki san’s manager–
“Where is Misaki san !?”
“Aoi kun? If so, he’s in the office of the second division.”
“Thank you !”
I immediately thanked him and ran out of there.
The office of the second department is at the end of the stairs on the left.
I don’t want to run inside the office, but…..it moves on its own.
(Misaki san……!)
I don’t even know why I’m doing this.
I can’t believe I’m running out of character and looking for a figure I don’t need to find right now.
But I wanted to see him irresistibly…..and my heart was full of it.
I went up the stairs and immediately headed for the room at the end of the hall.
Perhaps because I opened the door so vigorously, all the people inside turned to look at me at once.
But it didn’t matter.
I looked around the room and searched for him.
And then–
“What’s wrong, Sakura? Why are you in such a hurry….we still have time before the shooting, right?”
I found Misaki san, wearing a suit, sitting on the sofa.
(Ah……)
There.
There he was.
I wondered if I would ever see him again, or hear his voice.
For some reason, I felt as if such an impossible thing was real.
I was finally reassured that it wasn’t real, that the scene in front of me was the reality.
By the time I realized it, I ran up to Misaki san and…..jumped straight into his chest.
“H-hey ! Sakura !?”
……It’s real.
This warmth and voice was definitely real.
For some reason I thought I would never be able to hear him again.
The sadness I had been holding on to disappeared at once, and now I was glad beyond anything I had ever experienced in my life.
This was proven by the tears that flowed freely.
“……Misaki san.”
—I have to tell him.
Before I regret that I can no longer tell him.
“I.”
I looked up, and in my moistened vision,…..I opened my mouth.
“I love you.”
Misaki san is—-a special person to me.
I really wanted to tell him this much.
♦️♦️♦️
“….ey, sa…..ra.”
I heard such a voice from far away.
I wondered what it was, and when I opened my eyes, I saw Misaki san wearing a school uniform.
“Hey, Sakura.”
I slowly check my surroundings.
It seems that I’m in the car.
“We’ve arrived at the school.”
–Ah, I see.
I had finished filming “One Apple and Five Wolves” and was on my way to the school to take the last class of the afternoon just in time.
I was so tired that I fell asleep on the way there.
It’s true that many things happened today, and maybe it’s because I was more serious than usual?
“Thanks, Misaki san.”
“Don’t worry about it.”
I’m a little embarrassed that he saw my sleeping face.
(But I want you to see more of me)
To Misaki san, I was.
Me as an actress, me wearing a mask, me who found myself, everything.
And if it’s possible, I want to show more to Misaki san.
Fufu, to think that way…..it seems that I really fell in love with Misaki san.
“But you were sleeping comfortably, did you have a good dream?”
After getting out of the car, Misaki san asked me that.
I got out of the car too and lined up beside him.
“Hmm,……I guess so.”
I don’t remember much, but I know this much.
“It was a good dream.”
“I see.”
I feel like it was a really good dream.
All of my regrets and pain were gone, and I felt happy.
As much as I think so.
“What should I do now?”
“What do you mean?”
“My tone of voice, maybe? I’m not the same person I used to be, right?”
I can be myself that I found, or I can be myself I’ve always been.
There is no way I can go back….it shouldn’t happen.
Because, thanks to Misaki san, I’ve come to understand my own boundaries.
“It doesn’t matter which one, right? I like both Sakura’s.”
Ba-dump.
Just saying those words made my heart jump.
My face was about to heat up, but I quickly tried to act nonchalant.
Along with the role of Hiiyo Sakura, who I always wore before.
“……Fufu, let’s put it back then.”
“What’s that heart?”
“It’s–“
I turned around in front of Misaki san and turned on the smile that came to me unintentionally.
“Only you can see this side of me….don’t you think that’s unexpectedly wonderful?”
Because, to me, you are—-an important person.
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Wtf happened?I’m confused
Tried to gloss over it as much as you want, Author. It doesn’t change the fact that one of the timelines, Misaki died and many was heartbroken.