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“Shall we go home now?”
I suggested to Rika, finishing off my canned coffee.
“Yeah. It’s cooled off enough.”
“We’ve accomplished what we set out to do. We’re not here to stay any longer.”
Once again, it was a two-person ride. This time it was Rika’s turn to ride in front.
“Can you do it?”
“If Masa kun can do it, I should be able to do it.”
“Let’s see how you do.”
The first few dozen meters the performance was wobbly. I was overly concerned that my life might be in danger.
“Don’t be scared.”
“Your driving skills could get me killed.”
Just like Rika earlier, I held her firmly from her back. The upper body that I was feeling on my back was now being grabbed with my hands.
“You’re grabbing too much. Did you want to touch me that badly, you greedy?”
“Ah.”
The teasing tone of her voice made me regain my composure. Let’s take a fresh look at the situation objectively.
“I guess you didn’t notice.”
“I didn’t mean to hurt you. I’ll take my hands off you in a minute.”
“You are in too much of a hurry. It’s only two lumps and you don’t have to get attached to them. Besides, if you let go of your hand now, it will be really dangerous.”
What a blunder I was making just because I had a firm hold on her chest. The shy part of me is showing itself. It’s not cool.
“Then, I’ll do that.”
“Feel my heartbeat.”
We started off. We were out of the park.
The bike was not wobbly. It was as stable as if earlier was a lie.
“You’re a quick learner.”
“Don’t look down on me. You can’t….look down, today I say many ungraceful things……”
If Rika were a man, she would be making gaffes that could be considered sexual harassment.
“It’s as if you’re a changed person.”
“I guess that’s part of my nature. I tease Masa kun with vulgar words.”
“It’s part of your nature, right? I’m not going to be disappointed now. Rika is Rika. Even if she has a side that she doesn’t want to show, I’ll accept it. That doesn’t make me hate Rika.”
“You’re very open.”
“Isn’t it cute? If only it’s a little vulgar. It wouldn’t even be platonic love.”
“We are high school students.”
In fact, I had a sexual encounter at Rika’s house. This is the period when she is most sensitive and physically mature. It is natural to say, desire, and do such things.
“We’re still young.”
“But we have been together for more than ten years. We seem to be like a middle-aged couple.”
“Yes, we do.”
We know each other well and have a general idea of each other’s personalities. Even if Rika does something unconventional, there is a culture where I can accept it. If it is a slight intention, I can infer it.
Mature couple would be an apt description.
“I’m glad. I thought I was the only one who thought that.”
“When I think back on it, I realize that we look like a middle-aged couple. We probably aren’t in a period of boredom, so we probably don’t look like a full-fledged middle-aged couple.”
“A period of boredom, you say. I don’t want it to come, but I can’t say for sure. It’s not just me, but also Masa kun’s opinion.”
The only reason we can be together is because I had parted ways with that woman. I had tasted the nectar of misfortune and was immersed in black happiness.
Having lost our common enemy, what awaits us is the same relationship as before? Is it a relationship that has lost a certain tension and lacks stimulation?
We cannot see a year or a month ahead. Or even a week from now. Even the immediate future, tomorrow, seems a light year away.
That is why I did not want today to be over. Today, when I don’t have to think about anything, when I can just embrace joy.
“Ah. I don’t know if I want to change or not.”
“What do you mean?”
“What I want to achieve is lasting happiness. I want to break away from the days of continuous betrayal. On the other hand, lasting happiness leads to boredom. It is a period of boredom. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to be stimulated. I don’t want anything unnecessary. Such a dilemma.”
Greed. I don’t want things to change, but I don’t want to get bored because I don’t change. In that case, I don’t want stimulation. It’s selfishness at its best. Those who chase two rabbits will never catch one.
“People’s problems are endless. We cannot transcend human beings. We cannot fulfill our contradictory desires at the same time. We cannot escape from compromise when the cruel reality stands in our way.”
“Compromise, huh?”
“Unchanging days, I wish I could hope for that. I want to be with Masa kun in this stagnant time.”
“Rika…..”
“But, Masa kun. The environment around you will change. The environment changes people. We cannot stay in the same relationship. Graduation from high school is a good example. Your wish cannot be fulfilled as it is.”
Rika looked back. The sparks were gone from her eyes. A long list of words awaited her. She was sure of that.
“The walls that stand in our way make us stronger, but we don’t need strength. We don’t need walls like Kisaki. What we should aim for is to fall into happiness. We should cut away the superfluous, and polish up the happiness that fits in the palm of our hand. I don’t know where we will end up. But I hope to spend such days with Masa kun. If we can stay together until we become a middle-aged couple, it would be the best thing that could happen to us as childhood friends. The longer we spend together, the more we get to know each other and the closer we become to being one and the same. The fruit of love, such as a child. How many children do you want to have, Masa kun? No, we have to get married first. Of course, this is hypothetical. The wedding ceremony should be small. I think it would be good if it is a ceremony where you can really feel that you have been registered. Then we’ll have our honeymoon, and maybe I’ll call you Maa kun? Will you introduce me to our neighbors as Rika san? When our work eventually takes off and we have enough money, we don’t have to work. We will spend time together and raise our children. I will be Masa kun and Masa kun will be mine. The ultimate result is a child of the two of us. Isn’t that wonderful? Of course, I will not make them my puppet. But I can’t shake the fact that it is both me and Masa kun. When the children grow up, they will be taken care of. Maybe when they get older. In the end, they will take care of me when you pass away. The child who is both me and Masa-kun. This is just a fantasy, but don’t you think it would be a happy thing? I strongly think so. We reduce what we ask for and increase the intensity. By allowing some changes, we don’t change what we really want to protect. Make it semi-permanent–that’s how I try to think of it…….ah, it’s near. We should be getting off soon.”
There was no time to interrupt. For some reason, I wasn’t scared. It was probably because it was a heavy love, without malice.
I knew it, I thought again.
Rika is a yandere. And the great one.
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I’ve found the reason this kind of story is enjoyable is exclusively down to how the mc and his people get back at the betrayer. Once that’s been solved however, they tend to very quickly fall off. It seems that this novel is no exception. It was fun while it lasted, but afraid I’m gonna have to drop this.