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“….Haa, What a…..what a rotten world.”
After finishing her appearance on the program, one of the idols said these words.
“…………….”
In the waiting room, where only one person is present, the girl is staring in the mirror.
What is reflected there is the image of a girl… her own image being played with in such a way that she is ugly and filthy.
Long shiny silver hair.
The eyes are bright red like blood, and the skin is healthy.
Her breasts are so big that they stand out even through her clothes.
Her tight stomach and perky buttocks.
All of them were the object of ridicule and continued to be made fun of,……but because it was a precious body that was handed down from her parents, she had no complaints about the fact that she had this kind of body.
“Haa……”
Why am I…..being an idol?
She keeps thinking about that, but for some reason she doesn’t feel like quitting, is it because she has gotten used to the status quo,…..or is there something about it that she doesn’t understand?
“……My phone.”
With her phone in hand, she launched the social networking service.
Kouzuki Reiri is her stage name and her real name.
She has quite a lot of followers, but she knows that all of them are people who are bashing her on TV.
“……Uwaa, I’ve gotten a lot of terrible things written about me today.”
The honorifics that have become so ingrained in her mind, so important to her survival in this harsh world, come naturally to her even when she is alone.
She let out a sigh as she felt excited about appearing on this show…but that was it…because she was the only one…knowing that there was a voice that praised her and comforted her.
“……Ah.”
Reiri found that post again today.
Good luck, I’ll be rooting for you……that’s all, but still, Reire feels comforted when she sees this.
It’s too simple, too silly…..there’s no guarantee that this isn’t just criminal enjoying her reaction.
“This person is a kind person…I understand why.”
This is…..probably a last resort for Reire.
perhaps it is this uncanny compassion for Reire that is holding her together just in time.
“I want this person to listen to my problems. I want him to comfort me……because I don’t know anyone so kind.”
It was a wish to connect, even if it meant giving up everything.
Normally, many fans would like to connect with each other…well, that’s probably only a few people, but that’s what idols want.
Of course, that’s because it’s in this world…but for Reire, there was hope for someone who didn’t even know if he was a fan who would say these words.
“Should I send a DM? If it’s fake, they won’t accept it…ah, but it has the official mark on it, so it’s real…”
In the end, Reiri couldn’t act on it.
But that’s just for now…..perhaps there will come a day when she will have the courage to do so somewhere in the near future.
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“Oh, you look very good today, don’t you?”
“Eh?”
Monday.
As soon as I arrived at school, I heard Kanade say that and my eyes widened.
“No, look, you looked pale last Friday…well, even before that, you seemed to have been doing a lot of things. Did something good happen?”
“Well…..I’m sorry for worrying you.
“I mean, it’s fine. So what’s up? Did you find any good porn?”
“What are you talking about?”
I’m saying that I’ve had better experiences than pornography !
Well, it may be similar…..and if you ask me whether it’s normal or erotic, I’ll say it’s erotic, but the interaction with Noto brings me peace of mind.
It may be too much to ask, but that kind of enveloping kindness was so…..crazy…..even I wanted to do it all the time if I could.
(But…I can’t help but to be cheered up after being told that much. Noto really cheered me up.)
That incident…as she herself said, it’s a secret only between us.
I would never tell anyone about it, and Noto won’t even tell her friends about it…well, I guess that’s the case
“Hey, Kanade.”
“Yeah?”
“Life is full of pain,……but it’s not all bad.”
“……What’s really going on?”
However…I wonder what kind of face I should make when I meet Noto.
No, if you think about it, it’s not just Noto, but Minase too, right? It switched so many times, including on Saturdays and Sundays…ah, the anxiety that should have gone away may have come back.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning.”
“Good morning, Ami.”
Noto came into the classroom like that, but today, Minase also came in at the same time, a little later.
They stopped at the entrance and stared at me.
The two of them now look at each other in the eye and stop moving…then they both approach me at the same time. ……
“Good morning, Sukui kun.”
“Good morning, Sukui.”
“Y-yeah…..good morning to you both.”
I smiled at the two, and although I was a little awkward, I returned the greeting firmly.
Of course, that exchange didn’t end there, and as soon as lunchtime came around, Minase invited me out for lunch….and with Noto quickly catching up, the three of us headed up to the rooftop.
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……………”
“That’s right. I went out with Sukui kun on Saturday.”
“Hey..I just happened to meet him and just like that…umm…a lot of things !”
The two of them are now getting along very well with me in between, even though there was some discomfort in the morning.
I’m silently eating the lunch that my mother made with so much love, but I can’t help but notice the sweet smell coming from both of them.
“It’s kind of strange…….”
“I wonder why…….”
The two of them stopped talking and quieted down, and I tilted my head.
First, I glanced at Minase and saw that she was staring at me, then when I looked at Noto, she was also staring at me.
I was staring at both of them so hard that I couldn’t even taste the food in my mouth.
“As expected…it’s a strange feeling. I guess I want to know more about Sukui kun.”
“I know,……I want to know too. I want to know why I’m so interested in Sukui so much,…….”
No…could this really be true?
I denied it before as if it were obvious… but I think this is definitely the time for me to become popular.
However, there is something I can tell from the way they look at me when I interact with them in this way.
It’s a clear fondness that was there in the other world,……and now the two of them seem more like they’re just interested in me.
“Hey, you two.”
With courage, I call out to the two of them.
“What?”
“What’s wrong?”
The two of them are so close to each other…because of that, no matter which way I turn my face away, I can’t run away, or even let my body go.
I’ve already finished eating my lunch, and all I have to do is talk to them… maybe I can go, maybe if I tell them about my current situation, something will change.
Even though I thought so and gathered up my courage, the chime ruthlessly rang to let me know that there were only five minutes left.
“Ah…….”
Ah…..that’s too bad.
But I was glad I hadn’t been so hasty… but at the same time, the two of them grabbed my shoulders.
“You were about to say something, right? Let’s talk after school.”
“That’s right. Hey Sukui, there’s no need to try and stop me.”
This….might have been too early.
The atmosphere was obviously not such that I could escape, so I decided to think about how to convey my words.
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