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Tsukane has changed out of her uniform as she comes in and is a little dressed up.
I wonder what she’s doing here,…… I’m just glad she’s here, though.
“Last time Tanba-san was here,……, I wanted to be alone with you for the first time in a while.”
“I see.”
For some reason, it was cute.
I was so happy in my heart that she came to visit me for that reason.
I …… still like Tsukane.
I don’t know how many years have passed since my birth, but I realized that only Tsukane can fill the hole in my heart.
“I’m sorry? I said something troublesome.”
“No, I was just missing someone.”
She was very salty for being alone with me.
I gently patted her back.
“What’s that? You do that too?”
“What do you mean? Things are going well with Kajita.”
“I’m not worried about that. I just wanted to see your face. ……”
I almost thought she was trying to seduce me.
I just want to throw everything away… but I hope I don’t attack her.
If I can push down Tsukane like this…
“I’m glad I got to see your face too.”
“I haven’t given up on you,…… but that’s why I wanted to ask you,…….”
“What is it?”
If it’s Tsukane’s anxiety, I want to dispel it right away.
I was so nervous that my hands started shaking.
However, what was asked next cleared the ground for the feelings I was currently harboring.
“Do you really like Kano-chan?”
“…………”
It was as if a sudden feeling of annoyance had been lifted.
No, I wonder if I’ve always thought that.
What do I think about Tanba-san…To be honest, I haven’t really thought about it.
I think she’s a cute girl and she has some interesting aspects.
But I still can’t find anything that can compete with Tsukane in my mind.
It’s strange that I think I’ve figured it out in a day or two, but I’m sure it won’t change.
“Maybe I don’t like her that much.”
“That’s right. I thought that since Tomose accepted Kano-chan’s confession, his heart had changed, but that’s not the case. But if she’s your girlfriend, you should fall in love with her.”
“Huh?”
–What’s that?
I haven’t given up on you yet. ……
Love isn’t a feeling that fades after a few days.
My eyes widened in surprise, Tsukane immediately continued speaking.
“Don’t get me wrong. I didn’t want you to misunderstand me, so I told you beforehand that I haven’t given up on you, but don’t give me that look, okay? I’m just saying, if I were in her shoes, I’d be in a lot of pain, you know? You haven’t been in touch, have you?”
—not that
Because Tsukane doesn’t know about the real relationship between me and Tanba-san.
The only thing that surprised me was that …… she noticed that I wasn’t actively trying to get in touch with Tanba-san.
Even though the situation where I didn’t have to force myself to try to contact her has conveniently become safer not to contact her because of the Kajita incident, I feel that Tsukane is too perceptive.
“How did you know that I wasn’t in contact with Kano?”
“Of course it’s because she told me. Did you think me and Kano-chan wouldn’t get along because we’re rivals in love?”
“Eh?”
No, no, I don’t doubt that they get along with each other.
But the content of the consultation is not right. …… Normally, she would not tell her that much, and I am sure that Tanba-san does not like me either.
What’s more, if it’s been a week since I got her contact information, I’d understand, but you’re being sensitive.
Then, what do you mean? Is Tsukane just completely fooled by Tanba-san’s acting?
After thinking about it, I came up with a hypothesis.
Tanba-san is definitely aware that I like Tsukane.
If so, is she trying to make Tsukane aware of our real relationship?
If she is trying to do so by giving hints in small increments, it makes sense.
“No, maybe you care too much. Forget it.”
“Hee, I feel like I’m being kept in the dark about something.”
You’re perceptive. No, I’m easy to understand. I wonder if I’ve loosened up against a Tsukane
However, it is troublesome because it is not wrong.
Maybe I want to be seen through. ……?
I can’t answer because I can’t put my feelings together.
“Even if I hide something from Tsukane, she will probably see through it.”
“That’s right. So if there is, it wouldn’t hurt the aftertaste if you come clean.”
“No, so I don’t have anything to hide.”
“I see. Anyway, you should care about Kano-chan.”
“Yeah.”
I reluctantly affirmed.
Tsukane didn’t show a single unpleasant look.
I wish she would say more while looking regretful.
I love that kindness of yours and I hate it.
Such strong feelings make my heart clench.
If you’re going to be jealous, you’d better get it right or I’ll be worried.
–I’ll definitely make you happy after I’m done with everything, so suffer now.
–Don’t be satisfied.
–Focus on the painful future.
–Cry and scream about the past.
If you really loved me, you wouldn’t feel this way.
But I love you like crazy.
……, so I believe the feeling is real, just unformed.
“Tsukane, don’t you get sick of me leaving you alone with other girl?”
“You think I’m jealous? Not all girls have those feelings. At least I like Kano-chan too.”
“I see. ……”
I don’t know.
I can’t believe the words of Tsukane too much.
Maybe we can only say that in a friendship.
However, Tsukane and Tanba-san have only known each other for a short time.
No, if it’s like that that, so have I. …… Not that, but I wonder if it’s that easy to like someone
…The relationship between me and Tanba-san must be a lot more strange than it is from other people’s perspective.
“You have to treat Kano-chan at least as well as I do.”
That’s a tough ask.
Tsukane is unaware of or underestimates her value to me.
I’m interested in Tanba-san …… but I don’t actively want to get to know her.
And of course it’s impossible for me to treat her as much as you do.
Even though the time we’ve spent together …… is a step above.
“That’s all.”
When I said nothing, Tsukane started getting ready to go home.
I tried to reach out, open my mouth, move my body, but in the end I couldn’t do anything.
Tsukane left
The dark feelings hidden in my heart tormented me again.
I’m afraid of a painful future, I’m running away from the past because I don’t want to cry over it, I’m trying to push it away even though it’s my fault, it’s really – it’s disgusting.
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