Episode 68 – There’s So Much I Don’t Know

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Sendai kun.

Sendai kun, who protects me so hard.

I love you like that.

I love the way your shoulder sometimes touches me when the train sways.

I love the way you look at me with concern every time the train shakes.

I love your big hand that warms my cold hand.

I’m glad that you took my hand and ran away.

I would have gone crazy if I had kept talking to them.

It was like I was unconscious, but I remember it clearly. 

I was looking at them, thinking they should die.

I wanted to kill them, I thought, and my hands tightened.

If Sendai kun hadn’t been there, I would have been in big trouble.

Well, I still wish those guys would die, so maybe I didn’t realize that strangling someone to death would be such a big deal.

But.

Sendai kun’s hands have been shaking since a while ago, as if he was afraid of something, and I began to wonder if I was a little crazy.

Why do you look so pained?

Is it because you’re anxious about being with me?

Or is it a burden?

Everyone in my class was looking at me with cold eyes, but I was wondering if there was something wrong with me after all.

Is there something wrong with me that everyone thought I was crazy?

Would Sendai kun be able to answer me properly?

Or would he tell me a kind lie for me?

But I’m afraid to ask.

I wonder, I’ve never felt like this before……

“Shion san, I’m going to take a bath.

“Yeah. Leave the cooking to me.”

“Yes. I’ll take care of the dishes.”

As soon as I got home, I left Shion san in the kitchen and headed for the bathroom.

I was still worried about her because she hardly talked to me on the way home, but when we were at home, I was a little relieved to see her expression return to her face.

However, I still felt that Senapi was strange at school.

Not because she was crying.

Even though she was crying, for some reason I felt scared of Senpai.

She stared at Miyama san and the others as if they were her enemies.

I felt tense even to my fingertips.

She looked at them as if she was about to jump on them at any moment.

I hope it was just my imagination.

I wonder what would have happened if I had not taken Senpai out at that time.

Of course, I wouldn’t have disliked her just because of that.

I’m more angry at Miyama san and the others.

But.

I don’t want her to hurt anyone.

I don’t want the person I love to dirty their hands.      

“The bath feels so good today.”

Soaking in the bathtub, I tried to sort out my feelings.

I think it would be better if I talk to Senpai after dinner.

I still don’t know anything about her.

I’m not sure why she likes me so much, she’s so beautiful, caring, and a good cook.

Why does she become so unstable when it comes to me?

Will she answer me?

Senpai……

“I’m done.”

“Yeah, dinner will be ready soon.”

When I returned to the kitchen, Senpai greeted me in an apron.

It smells good to cook.

And so did she.

“Um, Shion san. Why do you always smell so good?”

I asked frankly what I had been thinking in order to make the situation a little more relaxed.

I don’t really care what Senpai’s sweet scent is.

I don’t even know that.

I want to know more about Senpai.

“…..I’m wearing perfume. Do you mind the smell?”

“No, I always thought it smelled very nice.”

“I see. Do you like my smell?”

“Y-yes. Very much. I……like Shion san after all.”

I like you.

I love you.

That’s why I want to know more about Senpai.

“……Sendai kun. I love you too.”

“Um…why me, Shion san? I haven’t done anything big.”

“No. Sendai kun always protects me bravely. At school, on the train, everywhere.”

“No…… I haven’t done anything.”

“No, that’s not true. Hey, maybe I’m a little weird?”

Senpai asked.

She looks at me with a sad face.

“Weird? There is nothing weird about you, Shion san.”

“…But I don’t like other people. Today, too, I seriously thought that the girls who talked to me should die. It’s weird to think like that, isn’t it?”

Senpai looked down after saying that.

I knew she was concerned about today.

Also, Senpai is not so good with other people she hoped they would die. 

That might indeed be a dangerous idea.

Normally you might think it’s strange, and I don’t think it’s normal either.

But she is not just a crazy person.

“It’s not good to think about dying or killing someone, you know.”

“Yeah……but I’m still the kind of person who thinks that way.”

“But even I can feel like wishing death on someone I don’t like.”

“……Eh?”

“It would not be good if they really died. It’s up to you to decide who you like and who you hate. It’s just that Senpai hates more people than others. Besides…..you like me, right?”

“Yeah. I love you.”

“Then, isn’t that fine? I don’t particularly think that Shion san is bad at socializing with other people, and that’s why she’s lonely even if she doesn’t play with anyone. That way, I can also occupy Shion san. So I’m happy.”

“Sendai kun……yeah, me too. I don’t like it when you go out with your friends. I think it’s best for us to be together all the time. Maybe that’s weird after all.”

“I don’t think so. I don’t want to be with them all the time. Well, I want to take good care of my friends. But I have more important things to do.”

“…..Even for a woman who does things like she did yesterday while you were sleeping?”

“Eh?”

Senpai’s face suddenly turned red.

It was my first time to see her properly embarrassed, and my heart skipped a beat.

But when she says yesterday…..she means kissing, right?

Did she kiss me while I was sleeping?

“…I’m so happy. I can’t believe you love me that much.”

“I just couldn’t resist, you know? Are you sure?”

“Yes. Isn’t it a little strange to ask if you can do it anytime after I go to bed first?

“……No, it’s okay. Then, I will do a lot while Sendai kun is sleeping.”

When I said that, Senpai smiled.

Her eyes, which always seemed a little empty, came into sharp focus.

 

And then,

“I’m going to take a bath. And brush my teeth. My mouth needs to be clean.”

“I have to brush my teeth too. Well, I hope it’s not bitter today.”

“Does it taste different when you brush your teeth?”

“Eh? I-I don’t know. But I thought it would be refreshing.”

“Boys are strange.”

“Haa.”

She chuckled and went to the bathroom first.

I went to the sink in front of it and started brushing my teeth.

I opened my mouth wide as I looked in the mirror.

Does this mean that brushing your teeth won’t change bad breath?

……Mouthwash, I think I’ll go buy some.

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Droopy
Droopy
2 months ago

BRUHH I finally realized what she meant by “bitter” lmfao I thought she just gave him a hand job or didn’t do anything waiting for the next day she actually gave him a bj when he fell asleep