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“Then, get yourself together. Fujisaki kun, the three of us have something to tell you, so listen up, okay?”
“……Yes.”
“Let me first.”
Misaki sensei approaches me.
It is at times like this that I suddenly realize that she is shorter than I am. Even though she looks like a big person, I’m actually bigger than her.
“I’m sure you know what I’m going to say, but I’ll say it again.”
The disturbing atmosphere from earlier is gone, and Sensei’s face turns a little red. I’m surprised at how quickly she changes her mind, but I wonder if it’s surprising that even Misaki sensei gets nervous at times like this…… I’m getting more nervous too.
However, very unfortunately, in the time it took me to get here, I had a full understanding of what the three of them were thinking of confessing. It would have been less fresh if they confessed again.
Still, I faced Misaki sensei with a face that I had never seen before.
“I love you, Fujisaki kun. As a teacher, I should not have thought of this, and even if I had, I should not have confessed it. But I could not forget this feeling, even if it might end my life as a teacher.
But surely you don’t know why I like you, do you, Fujisaki kun? I thought, We only work together in club activities, and we’re not that deeply involved.
To tell the truth, I don’t really remember why I fell in love with Fujisaki kun. You were calmer at your age, and I felt like I couldn’t leave you alone for some reason……. That’s how much I knew at the beginning, and one day I fell in love with Fujisaki kun.
Now, I have many reasons to like you, Fujisaki kun. But, I don’t think you need a clear reason to like someone. When you fall in love with someone, you fall in love first, and the reasons are just an afterthought.
That is how I came to like drawing pictures and comics. I didn’t like them because I had a reason for liking them at first, but the reason came to me as an afterthought after I fell in love with them. I want to impress readers, I want to impress myself, I want to express myself…… All those things came later.
I fell in love with Fujisaki kun. I don’t care about the reason anymore. If there is something I am irresistibly attracted to, if there is something that attracts me from the depths of my heart, there is no need for a rational, after-the-fact reason.
I like you, Fujisaki kun.
I want you to go out with me. Of course, this is not a relationship that we can be open about. We may have to hide it for a long time.
Evenso, I can’t suppress my feelings of love for Fujisaki kun. I love you…….”
After finishing his confession, Misaki sensei’s face turned red and shy. Illuminated by the sunlight, her face seemed to sparkle. The light reflected in her hair looked like an angel’s ring, and she felt like she was confronting the inhabitants of some fantastical world.
“……I’m very, very happy about your feelings, Nana san. But I really wonder. I can’t believe that you love me so much.”
“I told you, didn’t I? I don’t care what the reason is. Well then, the answer is after the other two, okay?”
Misaki sensei left a beautiful smile on her face and turned on her heel.
[Haa, it’s over……. There’s still a part of me that’s still a girl who gets so nervous just by confessing. Will I look like a maiden when we go to bed for the first time? That’s good……good ! I’m looking forward to it ! ……But the only question is, will he choose me? Well, even if he don’t choose me, it doesn’t mean it’s the end of the world, right? I’m not going to give up, am I? The other two, no matter what the circumstances…..]
Leaving a disturbing state of mind, Misaki sensei leaves and Misaka san comes in her place.
Misaka san fidgets without hiding her nervousness.
[I’m so nervous. But it’s obvious what I’m going to say, isn’t it? The only thing left is whether or not I can clearly put it into words…..
Still, it takes a lot of courage to confess. I thought I had thought about it a lot, but when the time came, I almost forgot what I was going to say…….
Once I confess, we can’t go back to the way we were before. No, I’m already at the point where I can’t go back. I just have to give it one last push. ……Okay. I’m ready for it…….]
Misaka san nodded one with a red face. [Okay] she says, gathering her strength and looking straight at me.
“Erm…you already know what I’m going to say, so there’s no point in hesitating.
I like you, Fujisaki kun. Even though I had a boyfriend until recently, I can’t help but think that I’m a bad person for confessing my feelings to other people the same day I broke up with my boyfriend.
But……honestly speaking, while I was dating Takuma, my feelings for him had already gradually changed…….
He was the first boyfriend I’d ever had, and I didn’t know what to expect. It’s true that I liked him a lot and we had a lot of fun together. But after going through so many things together…..I realized that Takuma and I didn’t really match.
I started thinking about what kind of person I would be really comfortable with, and then I started thinking about Fujisaki kun a lot.
I like your kindness, compassion, and openness.
Besides, I think Fujisaki kun understands that he and others are different people, that what they think and feel is completely different. And he knows that is fine. But we know that you can still respect and like each other.
It is quite difficult to be tolerant of differences between ourselves and others. Especially with someone I like, if we have a difference of opinion, it can turn into a terrible fight…….
With Fujisaki kun, I don’t think that would happen. I can honestly believe that it’s okay to be different from each other. And I can say whatever I’m thinking and feeling. That makes me feel very comfortable.
I know that you don’t have the brightness that attracts everyone’s attention, and you don’t have the power to pull others along with you.
But I think that’s what it takes to see and be there for others, and I like that about you.
…Erm, what else should I say? There were so many things I wanted to tell you, but I just couldn’t understand them anymore…..
But if I say too many things, I’ll lose track.
Anyway, I like you, Fujisaki kun. Please go out with me.”
Misaka san beams confidently. She’s usually a bright and cheerful person, so when I see that kind of face on her face, I feel like someone has peeked into the defenseless part of her heart.
“…..I’m very happy with Misaka san’s feelings. I thought I’d probably be a good person to girls at best. I’m not tired of being with you, but I don’t think I’m the right person for a boyfriend……
I also thought that I would never be able to actively get involved with anyone and that I would probably go through life without being taken seriously by anyone.
Thank you for liking me. I’ll never forget what you said today.”
“……Yeah. I won’t forget it either. I’ll see you later.”
For some reason, Misaka san left a tearful smile on her face as she turned around and walked away.
[……..For now, I think it’s okay because I was able to convey the important things. However, at this point in time, I don’t feel like Fujisaki kun has any special interest in me.
I’m sure that he will not choose me today. I know it’s not the end of the world, but it’s frustrating……
Ah……I feel like I’m going to cry already. Once the tension is released, all I can do is feel self-loathing at my own inadequacies……]
I was tempted to say something to Misaka san, but I held back.
To begin with, I don’t know what to say. All Misaka san wants is for me to choose her, not some clever words.
Even though I’ve come this far, I still haven’t chosen anything. If I hear Saki’s final confession, will I really be able to choose someone……?
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