Episode 8 – Past Lives and Dreams

“……Sol had planned to die after everything from the beginning. Even if Behe had not attacked Sol at that moment, he was going to die.”

Celes told Sol quietly, but with a definite look of anger on her face. It was a given that he was going to be attacked by Behe, but there was no doubt in his mind that he was going to die. Sol desperately tries to find an excuse, even though he thinks he can’t fool them

“Oh, um, you know! It’s hard to continue living with the lingering effects of the miasma. ……”

“Don’t be ridiculous!”

The one who shouted and grabbed Sol by the chest was Carla.

“Don’t be ridiculous, you were going to die! What do you think life is worth? feels to be left behind! ? You’re really kidding me, thinking that’s what you meant! ”

Seeing Carla crying and angry, Sol regretted that he had underestimated the value

In his previous life, he had lived in a state of neglect. When he died, Yuto thought that his parents and brother must have been relieved. So he thought that no one would be saddened by the death of Sol, who had been made a hated person by the miasma.

But he was wrong. Sol was the kind of character who could make his friends feel so much for him.

“I won’t do it again! I’ll never do that again!”

“promise, promise!”

“I understand! Okay, let go! I’m in a little bit of pain!”

I said, and Carla let go of her hand. Carla may be a woman, but she is still a fighter. She had the strength and I was in a bit of pain.

Lepios, who was watching next to her, opened his mouth while scratching his own hair with one hand.

“Tell me. Why have you done so much for us? What is it that you owe us, what is it that this world has saved you from?”

Sol was at a loss for words for a moment, wondering if Lore had even told Lepios and the others that.

To tell them why would mean that Yuto’s existence would be revealed. He was afraid that if they knew he was not the real Sol, they would find out about his ugly side and hate him regardless of the effects of the miasma.

“I’m sorry. I can’t say that much. I’m sorry. ……”

Unable to spin a good lie, Sol said only that. Seeing him like that, Lepios closed his eyes and let out a small breath.

“I understand. I will not ask any more questions. I’m just as happy as Carla, as long as you don’t ever do anything like this again.”

Sol was relieved by Lepios’ words. As expected, he had no intention of doing the same thing again. The setting of compensation for miasma disappeared. As for Sol, he simply wanted to enjoy a world where there was no compensation.

There was Celes looking at Sol while biting her lip.

“After all, you never say anything to us, do you? Then ……, after all, …….”

“Celes ……?”

Curious about Celes’ mumbling something, Sol looks into her face. However, Celes’ expression suddenly returned to her usual expression.

“It’s nothing special. Sol also promised to never do something like this again, so it’s time to change the subject. Lepios, do you have something to do with me?”

Saying that, Celes grinned at Lepios. Seeing Ceres like that, Lepios let out a big sigh.

“Come to think of it, that was the purpose of this gathering. Is tomorrow okay? I don’t feel like that right now. Besides, Celes, there’s something I’d like to confirm with you.”

“Oddly enough. I also have something I want to tell Lepios.”

And so the conversation came to an end. After that, they talked about nothing else. It was as if they had met, a conversation that would not even remain in their memories. And so the day came to an end.

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He had a dream. It was a dream of a previous life.

Sol saw his parents in his previous life in Yuto’s body.

Then, Yuto’s mother opened her mouth.

“I’m sorry for Yuto, but I’m a little relieved now that he’s dead.”

His father nodded at his mother’s words.

“Yes, it is. He didn’t even tell me directly why he couldn’t go to school after all, and I didn’t know how to deal with it. ……”

The father then looked at the place that used to be Yuto’s room. Then he let out a small breath.

“Also, now I can help Akira. I’ve had to put Yuuto first, and I’ve been puting up with it.”

“That’s right. From now on, I’ll give Akira as much love as I couldn’t before.”

Akira was Yuto’s older brother. Yuuto realized that he was causing trouble even to his brother because he had become a shut-in. And he knew that they would be happier if he died. However, when Yuuto’s parents said it to him again, his heart throbbed.

However, his parents could not see him. It was as if he had become a ghost, and no one noticed his presence.

Suddenly, the scene changed. It was a familiar path to school. There, his classmates were walking. Some of them were the ones who bullied Yuuto.

“Hey, you know what? I heard Yuuto died in a car accident.”

“Who’s Yuuto?”

“You know, the guy who didn’t come to school?”

“Oh.”

The person who bullied him said with disinterest.

“Well, I’m glad he didn’t commit suicide like Satoru did. At that time, it was a hassle to deal with the bullying and such.”

“That’s right. And even though I was getting along well with Satoru, they suspected me.”

“It’s true. Well, this time it was just an accident, so we won’t be told anything.”

　
Hearing such a conversation, Yuuto bit his lip. Satoru was also being bullied by his classmates. If he protect him, Yuuto will be bullied this time, and Satoru will no longer be bullied.

It was still good. Satoru was the only friend who talked to Yuto, who had no friends. However, something happened, and a while after Yuto became the target of the bullying, Satoru took his own life. Realizing that he could not protect Satoru, Yuto also stopped going to school and became a recluse.

This was the life of Yuto. After becoming Sol, he was able to receive love from many people, but Yuto felt as if he was being told that this was the real him

He was loved only because he was wearing the skin of a sol. The real Yuto is the kind of person who is shunned by his parents, who cannot protect a single friend, and who is forgotten as if he had never existed in the first place. He felt as if he had been told that.

“Good for you, Sol. You are loved by so many people.”

Yuto’s words melted away without being heard by anyone.

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