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“……Ahh. I’m so nervous.”
I’ve never been this nervous. I haven’t felt like this since that time.
However, the situation is quite different from that time. I have changed, and my position has changed…I wonder if Kaname felt the same way back then.
I suddenly thought about this, and Kifune san looked into my face.
“Yukito kun, are you all right?”
”No problem at all.”
As I took a deep breath and calmed down my heart, which was beating strangely, Kifune san suddenly lowered her head.
“I’m sorry, Yukito kun. I know it must be hard for Yukito kun. But…there’s nothing I can do. So–please. I want you to support Nanami chan.”
“Leave it to me, Kifune san.”
I patted my chest to make Kifune san feel at ease.
“I’m [Kusunoki Nanami]’s number one fan. This is nothing—“
その言葉は嘘じゃない。
But, if anything…this one is more honest.
“I am someone who was saved by a person named [Kusunoki Nanami] and and idol form [Sunlight Hope]. I can finally repay the favor. …So please look up.”
Finally, Kifune san looked up after I said that.
“..Thank you, Yukito kun.”
“I’m the one who should be thanking you. Thank you for everything you have done for Kusunoki.”
I could tell that Kifune san really loves Kusunoki, and that she adores [Sunlight hope]. Even in this short period of time.
“Then let’s go. Kusunoki is waiting.”
“……Right.”
Then we entered Kusunoki’s house and went to the bedroom where Kusunoki was said to be. Apparently there are three people there.
I never expected that I would end up going into Kusunoki’s bedroom…as expected, I couldn’t even be excited under these circumstances. I’m nervous
When I opened the door while trying to breathe deeply, the three of them were on the bed.
Kusunoki is sitting on the edge of the bed, and Kasumi chan is holding Kusunoki’s hand next to her.
And Tsumiki chan was hugging Kusunoki from behind.
Kusunoki, who was holding Kasumi chan’s hand and Tsumiki chan’s hand, was in a daze.
She slowly raises her gaze and looks at me.
“……Kusunoki.”
“You came. Yukito kun.”
Her expression hasn’t changed. It looks like she’s looking at me, but it also looks like she’s looking somewhere far away.
“Yukito kun, thank you for coming.”
“No, I just wanted to come.”
Kasumi chan smiles, but…she can’t hide her worry.
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize, Nanami. They came because they wanted to come, just like us.”
“That’s right !”
Kusunoki apologized, and the two of them said that–Kasumi chan hugged Kusunoki from the side. Tsumiki chan also changed her position and hugged Kusunoki from the other side.
“Nanami is not alone. We are here for you.”
“Yeah ! I’ll give you lots of hugs until you feel better !”
“…..Thank you.”
Even though they said so, Kusunoki’s expression did not change. When I look at her, I feel like my heart is being squeezed.
“……I’m gonna talk to the two of them for a little while. In the mean time, Yukito kun stay by her side.”
“I’ll be right back when I’m done.”
“Just wait a minute !”
“Yeah.”
And then they left.
“Yukito kun.”
“…Yes?”
I won’t go into details. Still, if I look into her eyes, I can tell what she wants to say.
There’s not much I can do, but…I’m a Kusunoki fan, and Kusunoki is my savior.
“Nanami chan. I’ll take care of everything publicly. You don’t have to worry about that.”
“Thank you.”
Kifune san smiled kindly…but the corners of her lips were twitching a little.
“Well then. If you need anything, call me right away.”
The door slammed shut after Kifune san’s last words. The two of us, Kusunoki and I, were left alone in the room.
“……Can I sit next to you?”
“……Yeah.”
She nodded and I sat down next to her, feeling relieved.
For a few moments, the sound disappears from the room.
I should have been thinking about what to say, but when it comes down to it, I’m not sure if I should really say anything.
I don’t know what words will hurt her now.
……No, if I don’t say anything, nothing will change.
Because I want Kusunoki to keep smiling.
“Kusunoki.”
When I call her name, she slowly raises her head and looks at me.
I saw her eyes turn towards me, and I took her hand.
“I love you, Kusunoki.”
“……”
“I’d like to think you know I’m not lying, even if I don’t say it.”
“I don’t doubt that.”
Kusunoki, who was silent, spoke back to me. It was a small voice, but I heard it clearly.
Her eyes are shadowed, and they are downcast again.
“……Rivals.”
But even though she was looking down, Kusunoki opened her mouth and started to talk.
“With [Sies]. We have been friends ever since we debuted.”
I listen to Kusunoki’s story while keeping an eye on her. To make sure I don’t miss a word.
“Ako chan is kind, but calling her a friend is a bit wrong…..Ako chan often says, [Nanami chan and I are rivals !]”
“…..I see.”
“Yeah…rivals, after all. I’ve always thought that.”
The words were cut off and tears began to spill.
The grip on my hand was getting stronger.
“I don’t know anymore. What should I believe? I’m starting to think that maybe Ako chan didn’t like me from the beginning…or maybe she started hating me.”
Eyes stained with tears look at me.
“Maybe…..Kasumi and Tsumiki, as well as Kifune san. I’ve been thinking that….Yukitp kun might also dislike me someday, even if it’s not right now.”
“Kusunoki.”
“I’m doubting myself again. To the two of them. Also to Kifune san, who worked hard for me. …Also to Yukito kun, who supported me all the time.”
My hand is let go. It grabbed my arm tightly.
“Seriously, no, I don’t want to…I don’t wanna doubt anyone again.”
“Kusunoki.”
“…..Don’t touch me.”
I was about to touch her hand, but I stopped at the words.
“It’s fine now…I’m not the one Yukito kun fell in love with.”
“That’s—“
“Yes. The reason Yukito kun fell in love with me was because I tried my best…I was shining even brighter.”
–I’m definitely a fan of [Suh]–but I like Kusunoki the best.
–….Which part?
–The part that shines brighter than anyone else.
Yeah, I said it. How could I forget the time I spent with Kusunoki?
“That’s why, I’m done with it. ……I’m not your favorite idol anymore. You don’t have to be involved with me anymore.
“……”
I shake my head, trying to think about it a little.
…If you have time to worry, it’s better to take action.
I opened my arms and gave Kusunoki a hug.
“….”
“Absolutely not.”
There is no resistance. ….I don’t care if I get sued for sexual harassment later on.
“What I said back then is true. I saw Kusunoki shining brighter than anyone else, and I wanted to support her. I fell in love with her. But…”
There is something that appeals to my heart again and again. [Are you sure you can say that?].
I’m just a fan. Just a classmate.
If I said such a thing, wouldn’t she feel uncomfortable?
I forced myself to crush such feelings.
I decided to support Kusunoki.
“I love [Sunlight Hope’s Kusunoki Nanami]. I love one woman named [Kusunoki Nanami] more than anything.”
I slowly and gently cupped her soft cheeks with my hands. She makes eye contact with him.
“The future is just as Kusunoki said, no one knows what the future holds. But I promise you.”
I will tell you everything that I have in my mind.
“I will continue to tell you that I love you in ten years, twenty years, fifty years, even a hundred years from now. I’ll keep saying that I love Kusunoki loudly so that you can hear me.”
“…Fufu. A hundred years from now, we’ll already be grandparents.”
–Kusunoki laughed. She finally laughed.
“That’s enough. I plan to live a long time and spread the word about Kusunoki to others.”
That made her so happy that I couldn’t help but smile too. I’m not joking when I say that.
“I’m gonna keep telling Kusunoki that I love her every day until then. I’m not gonna let that make you feel insecure. ……No, it’s simply because I can’t stop myself from liking you.”
“……I see.”
My arms were gently wrapped around her and she hugged her back. A lot of things seemed to scream inside me, but I tried my best to suppress them.
“…… You really don’t hate me, do you?”
“Never.”
“……”
Cute eyes stare at me. …When I noticed, the darkness in her eyes had become lighter.
“I need you to do one thing for me.”
“I’ll do anything.”
“……Then, I want you to tell me what you like about me. Not just as [Sunlight Hope’s Kusunoki Nanami], but [Kusunoki Nanami]’s favorite part.”
Words that I had not expected. I couldn’t help but open my eyes.
But—there was no reason to refuse, there were many reasons to accept.
“I understand. I might keep talking about it until morning, though?”
“……That’s fine. No, that’s better.”
Okay, let’s talk about it. Let’s talk about what I love about Kusunoki Nanami.
This time, I’m gonna talk about it in a serious manner, without any hesitation–letting her know how much I love her.
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