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“Why….”
Oh, shoot. I just got hot and …… self-destructed.
-Oh, by the way, Kouki said [there is someone else] but he didn’t say it was Sada san.
“Perhaps……”
I turn away in a huff and blurt out. Too much pain! I thought to myself. ……
“….perhaps?” came the voice of Kouki, who was still suspicious.
A burning impatience begins to rise in my heart.
Oh no. Will he find out……? Will he realize that I eavesdropped on his conversation with …… Hiroyuki san ten days ago? I don’t like it. I don’t want him to know. I don’t want Kouki to know that. I can’t bear to be miserable any longer.
“Ah, ……, the only person you like is Sada-san right” I desperately tried to keep my composure and spit it out, “Because, you see, in the same class. She’s smart, she’s pretty, she’s calm, she’s stylish, she seems …… honest, and she and Kouki seem to get along well …….”
It’s no good–.
No matter how much I try to bluff, my voice trembles. My vision becomes distorted. My chest becomes painful and I can’t breathe. I don’t want to say any more, it’s like my body is refusing to let me.
What am I doing ……? In the end, I am just miserable.
“You…”
After an uncomfortable pause, Kouki blurted out,
“You’re not listening to me.”
“—Haa!?”
What is that, out of the blue? Is that something you’re going to say now? How did you think I was listening to your “two-timing” declaration?
When I glared at him with all my might, my eyes met with Kouki’s. He looked at me with a dumbfounded smile. Kouki looked at me with a dismayed smile on her face, but with eyes filled with affection.
My chest tightened so much that I was at a loss for words. Even my complaints fluttered away.
It’s like he’s not even saying anything, but he’s just rounding me up. Just by staring at me, all my frustrations and dissatisfactions are made to go away.
It’s really unfair. It’s disadvantageous.
“I thought I made it clear,……,” Kouki said, scratching his head awkwardly. “I like the person who’s selfish, bossy, honest …… someone who’s just not going to leave me alone.”
“Ha……?”
A fawning voice leaked out.
I looked up at Kouki for a while, pouting.
bad-mannered only to Kouki, selfish, headstrong, and the opposite of honest ……? It’s a lie ……, isn’t it? I can’t believe that.
“Sada san was such a girl!?”
“Sada san is not that kind of girl!?” Kouki said, glaring at me irritably this time. “I honestly don’t even know what kind of girl she is! Why the hell is Sada san coming out! Get away from Sada san!”
“Get away, B-But…..:
“I’m not sure how I got it wrong, but – it’s you. There’s no one else like you,” Kouki said with a sigh, smiling softly. I only like Honami. “I’m only interested in Honami, and I’m not interested in anyone else.
My heart skips a beat. Immediately, a hot sensation rushes through my body.
What is that? I’m the only one you like? Why are you saying that all of a sudden? Stop it, it’s too late. I’m going to take it seriously. I’ll get carried away. Even if it’s a lie, I’ll be …… happy.
“It’s terrible, Kouki!” I was in tears. “Your technique makes you a fine adulterer!”
“Technique…..!?”
“Because I said, [I’m not willing to have three!] That’s why you suddenly started talking like that!”
“I’m not …… at all!”
“How can I believe you when you tell me now that you only like me! It’s too late! I heard that you like someone else!”
“What ……? Who told you that?”
“Kouki! You said so yourself just now! You came here to tell me to stop coming to your house because you like someone else! If you’re going to lie to me, at least trick me from the beginning, you idiot! Half-heartedness is the worst kind of cruelty!”
Then Kouki rolled his eyes and froze.
It was as if he had said it all at once and his body was empty. –No, in fact, empty. I haven’t eaten anything since this morning,……, and all the things I’ve been keeping close to my chest, I’ve thrown them out.
I didn’t mean to do this.
I didn’t want to say, [You cheated on me]. At the very least, I wanted to confess.
I couldn’t even get my legs strong anymore. I felt dizzy. I was crouching on the spot as if I were falling down.
Ah …… I remember this feeling.
It’s as if everything inside your body has been gouged out. A tremendous emptiness.
It’s the same as that time. Just like that time in my dream when I was staring at Kouki’s back as he left the living room with Sada san.
What? It wasn’t a nightmare, it was a dream.
To both knees.
“Honami”
As usual, I heard a voice call out to me, annoyingly softly, and I felt Kouki crouching right next to me.
“That’s—-the story with my brother”
Hnnn….? Brother…?
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