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“Well, you can have dinner in my room for now. There is no food in the refrigerator in the room I lent you. Or rather, you can eat in my room tomorrow as well. I’ll cook for you.”
“Eh? Amane san, you can cook?”
“That’s so rude. Of course I can. I live alone, so it’s not good if I can’t cook.”
“It would be a problem for sure, but.”
I thought she couldn’t cook.
She’s a young lady after all.
“And it’s not as much work to cook a meal for one person as it is to cook a meal for two. Do you have any allergies? I haven’t asked you about your likes and dislikes.
“No, not really. Also, I don’t have any preference when it comes to having someone else make it for me.”
“Then that’s fine. I’ll make it with what I have in the fridge today, so please wait. You can make yourself at home in the living room.”
“No, no, I’ll help you.”
As expected, my heart was not strong enough to relax by myself after being treated so well.
It was too uncomfortable.
“It’s okay, don’t push yourself too hard. I know you feel uncomfortable, but you’ve been through a lot today, so take your time. You can think about what you wanna do from now on.”
“But…”
“No buts. Well then, it’s your master’s order.”
“I can’t say anything if you put it like that. I’ll take your word for it.”
Master’s order, huh?
It is true that the current relationship between me and Amane san may be akin to a master-slave relationship.
Well, just in form, I’m the only one who’s benefiting from it unilaterally.
“What will I do now?”
First of all, I can’t go home.
I’m a minor, so it’s doubtful I’ll be able to get a part-time job.
So, I have no choice but to be taken care of by Amane san until I graduate, but there is also the question of whether my parents will pay my tuition fees in the first place.
If I can save the one million yen that Amane san is paying me as a reward, I can make up the tuition.
I don’t know what I want to do in the future, but I want to repay Amane san as much as I can.
I also want to see Misora again.
She goes to a different school, so she may not have heard the rumors, but I’m sure my mom will tell her anyway.
She was pretty friendly to me, so it would be really tough if she were to accuse me of something.
“Yanagi. It’s ready.”
“Already?”
“It’s been half an hour. You’ve been deep in thought.”
“Oh, yeah. Maybe you’re right. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t apologize. Let’s eat quickly. It’s late so after you eat, go to bed. Come back to my room tomorrow morning. I will prepare breakfast for you.”
Amane san said as she placed the food on the tray.
On the tray was a very tasty-looking gingerbread and white rice.
There was a salad and miso soup on the tray.
To tell the truth, it looked very delicious.
“Okay. I’m sorry for everything.”
“I don’t think this is the place to apologize. You’re supposed to say thank you at times like this.”
“Thank you.”
I think I’ve learned a little bit about what kind of person Amane san is after today.
I guess she’s not as pure and perfect as everyone thinks, but I think she’s still a considerate girl who pays close attention to others.
“Fufu, good. Then let’s eat it before it gets cold.”
“Yeah.”
[ [Let’s eat.] ]
We both put our hands together.
We ate the dinner that Amane san made.
It was so delicious that it seemed to sting my aching heart.
To be honest, I think it was better than anything I had ever eaten before.
“It’s really delicious.”
“That so? Then I’m glad. Eat up and go to bed early today. You’re probably at your wits’ end, even if you don’t realize it..”
“You think so?”
“Obviously. You should go to bed early today. Tomorrow you’ll be exposed to the needle in a haystack once again.”
“Right. Thank you.”
Tomorrow, I’m going to be in that place again.
Unlike today, I have one more ally on my side, but I’m sure it will be completely away from home.
Maybe I’ll be abused worse than I was today.
But I still have to stand up to them.
If I stop here, I will never be able to move forward.
“Thank you for the food.”
“Thank you for the food. Then you can go back to your room and sleep. Like I said before, you’re coming to my room tomorrow morning, okay?”
“Wait, let me at least wash the dishes.”
“Eh? You don’t have to worry about that.”
“No, let me do this much. Of course, I don’t think I can repay you with this much. And since you’re cooking for me, at least let me wash the dishes.”
I can’t have a girl cook for me and then clean up afterwards.
It’s not a big deal that it would affect my good name as a man, but I’d like it if she would at least let me do this.
“If you insist, I’ll ask you to do it. Thank you.”
“No, I’m the one who should thank you.”
“Fufu, I’ve been saying all along that you don’t have to worry about it. Then I’m gonna relax and let me know when you’re done.
“Yes, ma’am.”
I replied and immediately started washing the dishes.
I’ve been doing dishes for a long time, so I think I’m pretty good at it.
Well, I’m not proud of being a little fast at washing dishes.
“Okay. With this.
I’m done.”
“Hmm. That was fast. Thank you. Well, you should go to your room and get some rest.”
“I’ll do that. Thank you for everything. Good night.”
“Yes. Good night.”
Thus, I left Amane san’s room and went into the room she rented me right next door.
I saw the interior earlier and it was very clean, and the furniture and home appliances were very good, making me feel a bit uneasy as it seemed like a different world to live in.
“I think I’ll go to bed as soon as Amane san told me to.”
Well, I don’t know if I can sleep.
I roll over on the bed.
The bed is so soft that I have never felt before, and the anxiety I felt earlier has been dispelled.
This looks like I’ll be able to fall asleep soon.
Surely my body is at its limit as Amane san told me, or maybe even more.
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I dream.
No, I understood that the scene I am seeing now is a dream.
“I’m not interested in Sora anymore.”
“Just like she said, Sora. My bad.”
This must be a flashback to the events of that Christmas.
But it is not an exact recreation.
The reason I was able to determine that it was a dream is probably because I already felt nothing when I saw the scene.
I’m sure that some line has been broken.
That’s why I don’t feel anything when I see this.
Or perhaps it would be more correct to say that I have given up the feeling.
“Haha, I thought I was the cold type of person, but apparently I wasn’t.”
Two people who were really important to me until recently.
I thought I would be satisfied if those two were dating.
I thought I would be convinced, digest the betrayal, and move forward again.
But it wasn’t like that.
Today, my mind was occupied with losing my place and thinking about what I should do from now on, but when I saw their faces like this, I thought.
“I can’t forgive them.”
I lost my friends, my girlfriend, my best friend, my house, and my mom didn’t trust me, so I had a hard time.
And to think that they will continue to live in comfort makes me sick to my stomach.
Yeah, I really can’t forgive them.
All the feelings I had in the past are gone, and the only feeling I have now is an ugly desire for revenge.
I used to think that revenge was meaningless.
It’s hard to hate someone all the time.
But I was wrong.
I can’t suppress my emotions even though my rational mind thinks so.
I can’t help it, I can’t forgive them.
I can’t allow them to enjoy their happiness.
“I guess I’m an ugly person.”
I realized it for the first time.
But I feel comfortable.
It’s much easier than forcing myself to act like a good person.
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“Hah !?”
A dream, no, I knew it was a dream.
But thanks to the dream I just had, I think I know what I want to do from now on.
“The question is whether or not I should tell Amane san about it.”
I don’t want to involve her in my revenge, and I also don’t think this is something I should be telling people.
“Now, I should get ready and go to Amane san’s room.”
It feels kind of refreshing to have a goal set in the morning.
Oh, seriously.
“What am I gonna do now?”
I let my cheeks relax as I thought about what I was going to do.
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