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After that, he was briefly inspected by Lepios and allowed to go free, saying that he was no longer in trouble. Sol was not clear about Behe and Levia, but that did not mean that he could think about it and figure it out.
When he returned to his room, he found Celes looking at Sol with a worried look on her face.
“How’s your body?”
“No problem at all! I’m back to normal!”
Sol said this, but Celes’ face did not clear up.
“─ I’m sorry ……,. I wish I had been able to see what was going on around me.”
“What are you talking about?! It would have been bad if Celes hadn’t come to help me in the first place! I should have…”
As he spoke, Sol suddenly had a thought. The reason he’d put them in danger in the first place was because he was powerless.
“I’m sorry. If I had been stronger ……”
“What are you talking about? Sol is strong enough ……!”
“Haha. Thanks.”
Sol thought that she was probably just trying to comfort him. In reality, Celes was stronger when it came to fighting. Even if he trained a little at a time, it wouldn’t be enough to beat Celes right away. And if Celes trained at the same time, the gap between them would never close.
It was not that he didn’t like it. In fact, he was genuinely impressed by Celes’ hard work and earnestness. However, perhaps because he still has a love affair with Celes, he feels that he can’t even protect her enough.
“….. Hey, Sol.”
Celes looked at Sol, her eyes still moist with worry, and quietly held his hand.
“Please. Don’t try to do everything by yourself. If you can’t rely on me, you don’t have to rely on me. Talk to someone.”
His words sounded like his brother’s words in the dream. At the same time, the voice of Lepios, who said he could solve the problem alone, echoed in Sol’s head. Celes was relying on Lepios.
“I know. I’m unreliable. I can’t do anything on my own.”
Ah, surely, even in his previous life, in his brother’s eyes, Yuto’s actions were foolish and he could have easily come up with a better way to get around. And from Celes’ point of view, he probably saw the way he was left beaten this time around as unreliable behavior.
He knows it. He was a failure.
“This time, too, I knew I couldn’t do anything on my own, so I thought I was asking for Carla’s help. But you’re right. In the end, I ended up relying on Celes and the others, and not only Torsa, but even Celes was almost put in danger. ……”
“Sol……? What are you talking about ……? It was Sol who was more involved, and it was my carelessness that put me in danger. ……”
“I know that. I’m unreliable. I understand why you want to rely on Lepios.”
“No, I’m ……!”
Not wanting to hear any more of what Celes had started to say, Sol left the room.
What was he saying? He had ignored his own unreliability and was emotionally venting his jealousy towards Lepios on Celes. Sol was astonished at himself, thinking how childish he was.
“Huh? Sol kun?”
Sol looked up at Herve’s voice.
“Thank goodness. He’s recovered safely…or maybe that’s not the case?”
“Oh, no. …….”
When she pointed this out, Sol looked away. Seeing Sol like that, she smiled gently and sat down on a nearby sofa, inviting Sol to sit as well.
“What’s wrong? I’m here to talk to you, if you like.”
“Oh, no, uh, um, …….”
When she pointed this out, Sol looked away. Seeing Sol like that, she smiled gently and sat down on a nearby sofa, inviting Sol to sit as well.
“Well…Lepios is really reliable.”
Those were the words that came out without thinking. she laughed at Sol’s words.
“What?! Leo is!? From my point of view, Leo is still just a little boy!”
“Ah, no, for Herve san, that may be true, but ……”
Certainly, Lepios is also a younger brother to Herve. He probably looks like a child. But to Sol, Lepios seemed like an adult.
“…I want to become someone that people can rely on. But on the other hand, I often get told that I should rely on them more, so I wonder if I’m not that reliable… How can I become a reliable person that people can rely on?”
“Hmmm. But it’s okay to depend on me.”
Sol was flustered by Herve’s words.
“Oh, no, that’s not …… what I meant, but ……”
“There’s a specific person you want to rely on, right? You don’t want everyone to rely on you, you want that person to rely on you.”
Sol nodded at those words without saying anything. She was right. In fact, he had never once thought that he wanted Lepios or Carla to rely on him. Actually, he had thought that if they relied on him, Celes might rely on him too, but that was about it.
“Sol, you like her. So you want to be depended on by that person. Am I wrong?”
“Oh, um, ……, that …….”
This was so true that Sol couldn’t say anything. Celes was the only one he wanted to rely on.
Seeing Sol like that, Herve laughed.
“Men are really stupid!”
“What, men?”
“Yeah?! Leo too! He wants to be someone Rale can rely on, so he doesn’t tell her anything important! He doesn’t even depend on her! I hate Rale’s fickle heart, but Leo doesn’t say anything, and I agree with her when she says she doesn’t understand Leo’s feelings!”
“No, but Lepios was always a dependable person to begin with ……”
The Lepios that Sol knew was a much more reliable person than himself. That’s why he thought Celes would also consult with Lepios.
But Herve opened his mouth with a laugh.
“Is that really so? The day we came here, Leo showed his childish side to Sol and got emotional with him. Sol was the one who took a step back and looked at things from a different angle,. But if Leo is still being depended on, it’s not because he can depend on you, but because he feels safe with you.”
“Safe, you mean. ……?”
“Well, I know this might sound bad, but I don’t think Leo wants to be liked as much by Sol and Celes as Rale does. That’s why he’s able to be himself and say whatever comes to his mind. But in turn, the people around him can see Leo’s true feelings and feel comfortable talking to him about it. I think Sol isn’t able to be himself to the girl he likes either, so the girl doesn’t feel comfortable and can’t rely on him.”
“That’s ……. But how can I ……”
“You said you want her to rely on you, right? Why not just depend on her? It might actually stimulate the maternal instinct and make her feel good instead?”
“Huh!? No, but she does try too hard sometimes, so depending on her even more…”
As Sol spoke, she gently tapped his forehead with her finger.
“That may not be the case, though. Of course, this isn’t true for everyone, but the more a woman loves someone, the more she wants to know what’s really going on in their heart, including their painful parts, and share her feelings with them. Especially with someone she loves with all her heart.”
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