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Lies. ……right?
He was angry ……?What …… why ……?
I just said it wrong. I was really just trying to say “I want to stay with you”. But still …… still, I clearly said, ‘”want to sleep with you”!. “I want to sleep with you”? A girl said, “I want to sleep with you”?
If I say “I want to sleep”, as a man, don’t you expect a little ……? Don’t you think about being jealous or something?
At least get upset! I wanted to run out of the living room at any moment and scream upstairs.
“Aaaa, mou…!!”
If this happens, I’ll really sleep alone.
I lay down on the couch again, pulled Kouki’s blanket over my head, and closed my eyes.
You don’t have to yell at me, you idiot! –I swore in my heart, but my eyes were getting hotter and hotter.
Ah, no,……, I’m going to cry.
I’ll Sleep alone! What…… You don’t have to refuse so much. I’m not sure how much I’m going to be able to do with it. You can blush, stretch out your nose, or accidentally grin. …… Don’t you have any reactions like that? Just a little upset.
At least You’re not a child anymore. Don’t you want to do something like that?
Maybe it’s because …… me–?
Is it because it’s me that you’re not interested? I’m not good enough for you? you can’t see me as a love interest?
Why? I guess I’m not …… sexy enough? Not attractive enough as a woman?
Certainly ……, I groaned in my blanket, with my eyes still shut.
I’ve read on the Internet that boys get nervous when they see a girl’s moe gap, so I always come dressed in a loose T-shirt and shorts, which is so skimpy that it’s …… embarrassing. Instead of being thrilled, I think Kouki looks annoyed every time I see him. Of course, he never touches me or closes the distance. He is always very serious about keeping his personal space.
I had a bad feeling that it couldn’t be …… and my hand naturally went to my chest. Gently I touched it on my T-shirt, though I think to myself that it’s quite a bulge ……. Not enough for Kouki,……? C-cups aren’t enough for that guy? So, can’t you get a thumping?
Huffing, I opened my eyes in the blanket.
What shall I do?
I had never thought about it. Kouki’s preferences ……. If Kouki likes ridiculously b**bs or something, I’d be a …… toddler! It’s no wonder I’m not a ‘target’—
“Honami”
Suddenly, I heard the door open with a clunk and heard a different …… usual calm voice than before.
At that moment, my heart jumped in my chest, which I held down.
Unexpectedly, I jumped up with a start – at that moment, something soft and fuzzy hit my face.
“Whaa….What!?”
I thought he might have thrown a cushion …… at me. The one that fell into my lap was a stuffed animal. It was about 30 centimeters long. It had a pure white triangular head and short arms and legs extending from its round, boiled-egg-like body, and was wearing a mustard-colored costume. He has a distinctive …… smile that seems to be out of his mind.
“Hanpenman…?!”
I was nostalgic and surprised at the same time, and my voice was rasping out in what sounded like a very bare-bones way.
“Why ……”
“My mom was afraid to throw away my stuffed animals because she said they might be cursed or something. So I put them all upstairs in the closet.”
“That’s not what I meant.”
Holding the Hampenman with both hands, I turned around with a start.
“If you miss sleeping alone, sleep with it. Just like the old days.”
Kouki says something like that as he gently sits next to me. In a gentle tone of voice. He seems to be taken aback,……, and after all, with a kind smile on his face.
I feel like my heart is about to burst.
It’s not fair–.
“What ……[you’re not a child, you should sleep alone!] You’re the one who’s treating me like a …… child by telling me to sleep with my stuffed animal!”
Like a conditioned reflex. I turned my face away from him in a huff with such a hateful comment.
Stuffed animals in high school? When are you talking about like in the old days?
I don’t want you to treat me like a child. I want you to see me more as a woman. I would even sleep with Kouki.
It pisses me off. ……
No, I can’t. I’m — I’m glad.
The kindness of you going out of your way to bring a hanpenman for me. I like the earnestness of the person who was angry with me, but came back because he couldn’t leave me alone after all. I like that about Kouki because he has always been the same.
It’s helpless, isn’t it?
He treats me like a child, and even though I want to be angry,…… my chest heaves on its own. My mouth relaxes. The back of my body gets hot and itchy. I can’t stay still and I want to hug Kouki right now. If I could, I would want him to hug me ……. To drown out these urges, I hugged the hanpenman tightly, as if I were squeezing him into my chest. Just like back then when I was waiting for my parents to return home with Kouki while I was sleeping in my sleep. ……
It was about that time.
“I’m sorry…..I’m sorry for yelling at you earlier.”
Unusually, when I thought he didn’t say anything back to me, …… suddenly, Kouki apologized to me for that.
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