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“I’m home.”
I arrived home in a cheerful mood, still feeling a little tipsy.
I wondered if Towa san was still awake.
I had told her that it was okay if she went to bed first, but…
“Welcome home, Itsuki san.”
Towa san greeted me in her usual maid outfit.
She smiled sweetly like a young lady.
“Towa san, I’m hom——e !?”
Overcome with joy, I tried to repeat “I’m home,” but Towa san reached out and pulled me close, wrapping her arms around my head.
“…Towa san? What’s wrong?”
I asked, trying not to be swayed by the soft, comforting feeling.
“Even maids get lonely when their master comes home late,”
She whispered, tightening her embrace.
A gentle, warm hug. The sweet scent made my head spin, and I felt like I was going crazy.
“Tonight, I’ll serve you… no, tonight, may I be the one to be spoiled?”
“Of course. I’d love that.”
After the drinking party ended, the night alone with the maid began.
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——A few hours later.
“…Towa san, shall we look for a place to live together?”
Even after the alcohol had completely worn off, my resolve hadn’t changed. I must have been intoxicated by something other than alcohol.
“……? We already live together, don’t we?”
Towa san, lying next to me on the bed, tilted her head.
“I mean a new one. This place is too small.”
“If that’s the case, I don’t mind. I like small places.”
Towa san gently took my arm and closed the distance between us.
We could always be close to each other.
Of course, there were advantages to that, and I thought it was something I couldn’t give up.
“But this place is run-down, and there are bugs.”
“Ugh, well, that’s true…I guess…”
She suddenly frowned.
Bugs were her natural enemy.
“…B-but why are you suddenly bringing this up?”
“Well…”
After a moment’s pause, I looked at Towa san.
“I was thinking of ending the trial period.”
“Eh…?”
I took her hand as she stared blankly with wide eyes.
“I like you. I want you to be my girlfriend.”
“Itsuki san…”
In that moment, the emotion reflected on her face.
It was a complex one.
As someone who is ultimately a stranger to her, I could never fully understand it. There was a whirlpool of intertwined emotions there.
But I knew it wasn’t pure joy.
“I…I can’t be your girlfriend. No, I can’t be anyone’s girlfriend.”
My chest tightened.
“….Why?”
“……………….”
At that moment, I remembered.
That night, I spent the night with her as she invited me.
Since then, I’ve been avoiding her gaze.
“….I’m a weak person.”
Her eyes were cloudy, with a shadow in them.
Now, they were clearly visible in my field of vision.
“I can’t live without being dependent on someone else. I’m a weak person. Even working as a maid is like that. If I’m not needed by someone else, I can’t find meaning in my own existence. If I’m abandoned by my master, unwanted by anyone, and left alone, I’d rather die than live like that.”
The color fades from her eyes as she speaks calmly.
Ah, yes. That’s right.
That night, the maid soaked in the rain had such a deathly expression on her face…
But that’s why, after hearing this story, I think to myself.
“I’m using others to survive.”
“That’s just the way it is. No one can live alone.”
This person is so kind, I think to myself.
“But, Itsuki san. I don’t particulary like you either, you know? I’m just parasitizing on your kindness…”
“Even so, I was saved.”
“…!?”
Even though she praises me like that, the one who is truly kind is Towa san.
She sensed that I was seeking salvation and did everything she could for me.
I have no idea what kind of life she has lived.
As a maid, I truly admire her for being able to live for someone else.
Even if she feels guilty about it, the skills and kindness she has cultivated to serve others are not a lie.
“Stay dependent on me for the rest of your life.”
“W-what are you saying…”
“That’s fine. Someday, I’ll make you fall in love with me.”
“—-Nn !?”
I forcefully cover Towa san’s lips with mine.
Then I cover her body with mine.
“I’ve decided I’ll never let Towa san go.”
“I…I never thought I’d be in a relationship with someone…”
I won’t repeat my regrets.
That’s the only thing she taught me after I broke up.
I don’t want to lose the woman I love again.
I can’t live alone anymore either.
I want to be with Towa san forever.
“I’m going to violate you now, Towa san.”
“Eh…?”
“It seems you don’t understand when I say it with words. I’ll make you understand with your body.”
“……Are you going to r*pe me?”
“That’s right.”
I can’t believe I have to resort to such a violent method.
I feel so disgusted with myself that I want to die.
But if I let her go now, I think I’ll never be able to shake off this sadness.
I stare straight into Towa san’s cloudy eyes.
Then she softens her expression and smiles.
“…Is that so?”
She relaxes her whole body as if she has accepted everything.
“That’s very, very easy to understand…”
And then, unbelievably, she wraps her arms around my back.
“Please, Itsuki san.”
She whispers seductively.
“Take me. My heart—”
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