Episode 68 – Confession of true feelings

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“…..Nn.”

“Good morning Onii How are you feeling?”

“My face hurts.”

“I’m sure it hurts. You were beaten up a lot.”

Well, I must have passed out from Towa’s beatings.

I don’t know why Misora is here.

“I wonder what went wrong with me.”

“Isn’t it everything? I was listening to the conversation, and it was all Onii’s fault.”

“……Seriously?”

“Seriously. No wonder Towa Nee san is so angry.”

Misora says, sounding completely shocked.

By the way, was this guy listening to the conversation?

I eel like I said a lot of embarrassing things.

“What do you think I should do now?”

“First of all, I think you should apologize. You were totally at fault this time, and it was understandable that she was angry.”

“But I really didn’t wanna cause her any trouble……”

“That’s the thing, Onii. That idea is wrong. You probably think that the more important she is, the more you don’t want to cause trouble, but that’s not the case. It may not be a good thing to cause trouble to someone important to you, but there are also relationships where you cause trouble and get help, and then Onii repays the debt, and that’s how it continues. You can’t deny that outright, can you?”

“…… Indeed.”

I’ve been living my life trying not to cause trouble for Towa and Misora.

That’s why I decided to keep my distance, thinking that I wouldn’t be able to fall in love with Towa.

I guess I was afraid that I would fall in love with Towa even more and confess my feelings to her and be rejected.

Maybe I just wanted to continue our relationship as it is now.

No, I’m sure that’s what it is.

I’m a weak person.

“I don’t know what Onii was thinking when he decided to distance himself from Towa Nee san, but you were attacked a while ago as a result. I know you blame yourself for that. There is also the fact that Towa Nee san was able to stay safe because Onii was there. The point is, it depends on how you look at things. So don’t tell me to be positive about this, but try to look at things from a broader perspective.”

“I can’t tell who’s older.”

That’s a perfectly good argument.

I’m a negative person by nature.

That’s why I get confused when I’m suddenly told to be positive, and I end up giving up because it’s impossible.

But Misora, whether she knows it or not, doesn’t tell me to be positive.

She just tells me to broaden my perspective a little more.

“That’s right～I’m more mature than Onii ! You can thank me for that !”

“I’ll always be grateful.”

I put my hand on top of Misora’s head and pat it briskly.

“Hey, Onii ! you should be a little gentler.”

“I’m sorry. Thank you, Misora.”

“Don’t worry about it. It’s my job to take care of my brother who has a troublesome personality.”

“You’re a good sister and I’m grateful for that.”

I’m always grateful to Misora for all the help she gives me.

This, too, could be seen as a nuisance if you look at it in a different way.

But if I thought that way, Misora would get angry with me again.

So, I decided to think of it not as bothering her, but as helping her.

“This is just a piece of advice, but you should tell Towa Nee san what you are thinking and feeling without thinking about the trouble you are causing her.　Otherwise, it’s gonna get even more complicated.”

“…..Got it. I’ll keep that in mind.”

“Good. Good luck.”

Misora called out to me and I left the room.

The time is 10:00 p.m. It is a little late at night.

It is a little late at night, but I have a feeling that if I leave things as they are, I will end up in a situation that I will never recover from.

So I take a deep breath in front of my eternal room and ring the intercom.

It’s the first time I’ve rang the intercom here, I think.

“……”

After a few seconds, there is no answer.

Maybe she fell asleep?

But it is only 10:00 PM.

It seems too early to go to bed.

So maybe she’s really angry and doesn’t want to see me, so she’s ignoring me?

Totally possible.

“What’s happening……”

As I was feeling anxious, I heard a very unhappy Towa’s voice on the intercom.

“Can I talk to you for a minute?”

“…..Okay. The door is unlocked, please come in.”

“Okay.”

I go into the room as Towa tells me.

What should I say and how should I apologize?

My head was full of such thoughts.

◇

“So, what did you wanna talk about?

I was taken to Towa’s private room, and now I was sitting on the floor.

I was not told to do so by Towa, but I was sitting on the floor by myself.

“First of all, I would like to apologize. I’m really sorry that I took the time to distance myself from you without saying anything.”

“That’s it?”

“No, there is more……”

There’s more, but I get nervous when I try to say it face to face.

Even now, my heart is beating so fast that I feel like it’s about to explode.

“I said it out loud earlier, but I love Towa. I love Towa so much that I’m going crazy. That’s why I was scared. I loved Towa even more and confessed to her, and then she dumped me and ruined our current comfortable relationship. That’s why I tried to distance myself. It was just an excuse that we weren’t balanced. I’m sorry for bothering Towa with my ego.”

“….One correction. There is no way in hell I would ever reject you.”

“That means….”

“I love Sora too. Even to the point of driving myself crazy. I’ve never had this feeling before, it’s new and I’m confused about it. At first I didn’t know that this feeling was love.”

Towa starts to laugh.

Does this mean?

“I mean that I’m in love with you, Sora. Let’s go out.”

“That’s what I wanted to say.”

I said, a little jokingly.

I had no idea that Towa liked me at all.

But right now, my joy outweighs my surprise.

I wanted to jump up and down at any moment.

“Too bad. I said it first.”

“I don’t care. I’m sorry I ran away from you.”

“It’s okay. I’m sorry I hit you like that.”

“Don’t worry about it. It made me stop running away.”

I’m grateful to Misora for that and for all the things she said to me afterwards that made me take action.

I really have nothing but gratitude to Misora.

“I’m glad to hear that. And you know what?”

“What’s wrong?”

“You said earlier that I can’t fall in love when I’m around you, but it’s the exact opposite. I can’t fall in love if you’re not near me.”

“Uh-huh.”

Seeing Towa like that was so cute that my heart was beating faster than ever today.

◇

“I like Sora.”

“I like you too, Towa.”

After that, we talked a little and relaxed in the living room. Since we’ve been dating (only for a few minutes), Towa has been very sweet to me instead of being cool like usual.

I find it cute and I can’t help but notice that her character has changed a bit too much.

“Fufu.”

Towa is resting her head on my left shoulder and smiling with a satisfied look on her face.

I have never seen Towa like this before.

Gap? There are too many.

“Has your character changed in any way?”

I feel like I’ve heard something similar before.

“I’ve always wanted to be pampered ! My father and mother have been busy since I was little, so they haven’t been home.

I never had anyone to spoil me, so this is a reaction to that.”

“I see.”

Somehow it made sense to me.

Towa was starved for affection.

However, she had never been able to spoil anyone before, but now that she has me (for a few minutes) as her boyfriend, she wants to be pampered to the fullest.

Well, I don’t feel bad at all thinking that I’m the one who can see Towa like this.

I feel rather good !

And she’s cute !

“Sora, you must never leave me, okay? …If you cheat on me, I’ll punish you. No, I’ll make you suffer even more than that.”

“Yeah, don’t say horrible things in such a sweet voice, okay? Of course I have no intention of doing that.”

I don’t think there is a better woman in the world than Towa, no matter where you look.

I don’t care if there is, because I love Towa.

“I’m glad~hehehe.”

But still, she’s really cute, like she’s a little younger.

The cool atmosphere you see at school or at other places is apparently the result of her having run away from home.

Now she is just a cute girl without any trace of that.

No, she’s usually cute, but she’s usually more beautiful than cute.