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“Maybe I should keep my distance for once.”
I sit alone in my room on my bed and think.
I’ve been a little strange lately.
I can’t stop thinking about Towa.
Whenever I have a little free time, I find myself thinking about Towa.
A little while ago, I told Misora that I loved Towa.
Maybe it was a little after that. I can’t stop thinking about Towa.
“I feel like I can’t stop myself if this condition progresses any further.”
Even if Towa just looked a little cute in class today, I would get possessive.
If I go too far, I’ll end up being just a stalker.
It’s not funny that after I catch a stalker, I become a stalker myself.
No, seriously.
“But I can’t stop going home with her. If I did that, I’d be in breach of our agreement.”
A promise I made when I was rescued by Towa.
I don’t want to change that.
“I don’t know what to do.”
At any rate, I don’t feel like I can go back unless I open the distance little by little.
If that happens, it will be a problem for Towa, and it will not be good for me.
“For now, the only policy is to gradually increase the distance between us.”
I like Towa, but there is no chance that she likes me.
It’s zero.
But if I depend on her, it’s not good for anyone.
No one will be happy.
“I’ll eat lunch by myself for some reason or another.”
It’s a pity that I can’t have lunch with Towa, but I have to do this, so I have no choice.
When this feeling subsides, we’ll spend time together again.
Maybe she’ll have a boyfriend or something by then, but maybe that’s better for me to give up.
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“So I’ll eat in my own class today.”
“……I see. I’ll see you on the way back. “
“Yeah.”
I explained the situation and left the classroom with Towa during the lunch break.
By the way, I said that I would eat with my new friends, but that wasn’t the case at all, and I was just sad and bored.
“Hm? What are you doing here?”
“Nanami san? What are you doing on the rooftop?”
I know it’s hard for me to say, but it’s not normal to be on a rooftop in such cold weather.
I can’t help it because I’m a loner.
Yes, I can’t help it.
“I’m always here. I don’t belong in the classroom.”
“Are you being bullied?”
“No way. I grew up in an environment where people my age seem so young that I can’t help it. I try not to get involved with them as much as possible. It was bothersome because they confessed to me so many times.”
Nanami san sighs in a very annoyed manner.
I sigh, knowing that I’ve had a similar feeling about how popular people are and how hard it is to be popular.
“So? I told you about me, but why is Senpai doing here? Normally, you would have had lunch with Amane senpai by now, wouldn’t you?”
“….There’s something.”
Nanami san immediately stares into my eyes.
When these eyes look at you, you get the illusion that everything about you can be seen through.
“Something happened. I’m not gonna tell anyone, so please talk to me. I guess we’re friends, right?”
“…Will you listen to me?”
“I’m just a psychopath if I say I won’t listen to you after I brought it up.”
“That’s true.”
That’s very true.
Nanami san is always agitated, but she really cares about me, and I think she’s the perfect person to talk to.
I think she’s a great person to talk to.
“So, what’s going on? Don’t tell me you had a fight.”
“No. We haven’t really had any fights or anything like that. To begin with, there haven’t been any issues that would warrant a fight so far.”
“Then why are you alone in a place like this? Amane senpai isn’t following you either, so you’re probably here by telling some kind of lie, right?”
Nanami san said this to me as if she was taken aback.
I’m in awe of your continued insight.
I feel like I can’t hide anything from Nanami san.
“Correct. Nanami san really knows everything.”
“In a manner of speaking, I am a detective’s daughter ! I’m used to reading people’s emotions !”
“I think you read too much for your own good.”
Nanami-san was puffing out her chest.
Her gestures are cute, but I can’t bear to read her mind so easily.
“I’ve been thinking too much about Towa lately, so I’ve been thinking about distancing myself a little.”
“……Huh? What are you talking about, Senpai? Have you finally lost your mind?”
“What do you mean “finally”? That’s rude. So, I’ve been thinking about Towa lately, and it’s gonna get worse if I continue like this, so I thought I’d try to distance myself from her.”
“……Haa. This guy is hopeless. I can’t save him. I’ll contact Misora san later.”
Nanami san was muttering to herself while holding her head, but I couldn’t hear what she was saying.
But from the look on her face, I feel like she’s not saying anything good.
I feel like she’s putting me down.
“Aren’t you disrespecting me in some way?”
“I don’t know. I don’t know about you anymore.”
“Hm? What are you talking about?”
I thought my mind was being read just a moment ago, but now I’m confused when she says something like this to me.
“I’m talking to myself. So you’re saying you were trying to have a lonely lunch on the rooftop in this cold weather?”
“That’s right.”
It sure is cold.
If I stay in such a place for a long time, I might get hypothermia.
“Ah, I’ll join you. Isn’t it nice to have lunch with just the two of us once in a while?”
“That’s true. I only talk to Nanami san when something goes wrong, so we don’t really talk about our private lives.”
“That’s right. The only time Senpai would talk to me was usually when he brought in something troublesome.”
“……I’m sorry.”
It hurts to hear you say that.
It certainly feels like Nanami san has been burdened with trouble lately.
“Well, that’s fine. So, can I ask you what you’ve been up to lately?”
“I don’t know. I think I’m doing about two things: studying and muscle training.”
“…What’s with that uninteresting answer?”
“It can’t be helped, right? That’s all I’ve been doing lately.”
I can’t help it, because lately I’ve gotten into the habit of going home, doing the muscle training routine I’ve decided on, and then checking and studying karate kata.
Even I think my life is boring, but I can’t help it.
“Still, are you really a high school boy? Don’t you go out with your friends?”
“I don’t have any friends to begin with.”
I used to have friends, but it seems I was the only one who considered them friends.
Since the rumors started, everyone has become my enemy, so I have no friends at the moment.
It makes me sad to say it myself.
“…I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay.”
“Well, I’m sure you’ll find someone who cares about you.”
“I hope so.”
I’m flattered.
I’m sure there is no one who really cares about me.
I wonder if Misora is thinking about me.
If so, I would be happy.
“What about you, Nanami san?”
“I’m doing research and other things……”
“I see. You’re just like me, aren’t you?”
“Don’t put us together ! I have a job ! I’m not like Senpai, okay?”
I think we’re the same~.
But I won’t say it because Nanami san will just deny it if I say it.
“What a boring private life we have !”
“Please don’t say that. It’ll make you sad.”
For some reason we both ended up having lunch with heartbreak.
Next time I talk to Nanami san, I’ll try to talk about more fun topics.
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