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“—Can you go in there?”
“Y-Yes.”
I move my body awkwardly to the back of the bed with Hina, and I get under the covers, moving the pillow toward her.
“Is it okay?”
“I’m fine”
“—Thank you very much.”
While saying this, Hina rested her head on the pillow.
The bed is a single bed, so it’s big enough for two people to sleep on, but it’s still a little difficult to turn over in bed.
I don’t think it’s that bad of a sleeping position, so I want to believe that it’s okay, but what if Hina gets inconvenienced by my sleeping position?
…… Okay, I guess I can afford to think this far.
Once I left the bedroom using the excuse of the charger and whatnot, I couldn’t think of anything, but now that I’ve had some time to think, I’ve been able to think to some extent. However, with Hina right under my nose, I’m sure I’ll soon run out of room again.
It would be a good idea to go to bed early.
If the sleeping pattern caused me any trouble, I’ll think about it then.
“Well, good night.”
“G-Good night.”
I said this to Hina and turned my back to her.
I close my eyes and look desperately for sleepiness… but I can’t find it anywhere.
Rather, I feel sleepy, but I am too conscious of the fact that Hina is sleeping behind me to sleep.
The bed smells faintly of that sweet smell that I smelled when I held Hina in my arms, and I can’t help but feel uncomfortable.
I meditate, thinking about going to sleep, but I can’t feel any sign of consciousness falling.
What on earth should I do ……?
“….. Hikaru, are you still awake?”
At that time, a cute voice like a bell is called from behind.
“….What’s wrong, can’t you sleep?”
“No, that …… I still want to talk a little more.
…..I used to not have many friends.”
My chest tightens at the words that were suddenly spoken to me.
“When I was little, I changed schools a lot. Whenever I went to a new school, I tried to find a girl I could get along with, but I didn’t fit in very well. …… Sometimes, even if there was a girl I got along with, I had to say goodbye to her because we moved again soon after. Not only that, but sometimes they would accuse me of stealing the boys they liked or something like that. ……”
I noticed a faint tremor in Hina’s voice.
As I felt that tremor, I continued to listen to her words.
“I tried my best at first. But as I said goodbye to them many times, I got scared and began to think that if I was going to leave them again, it would be easier to not be friends with anyone from the beginning.”
Her confession made my heart ache.
I had no idea that behind Hina’s usual bright smile, she was hiding such loneliness.
“So, when I first started high school, I didn’t talk much. I was afraid that even if I became friends with someone, I might lose them again…”
I was a little bit convinced by her words.
“But I met …… Hikaru, and things changed a little bit. He looked at me properly and was always kind to me,…….”
The voice of Hina choked up.
“I …… think I’m really happy. But even …… I’m scared!”
I saw her hide her face as she cowered in bed.
A small sob escaped.
“I’m scared…… that I’m so happy and I’ve made people that I care about so much, but I’m scared that if I lose them all again,…… !”
I had no answer to her words, and after a certain amount of silence, she called me behind her back.
“–Hikaru.”
“Hmm?”
“C-Can I borrow your …… back?”
I returned the silence to that voice.
Are you still playing with my heart after this period?
She probably doesn’t want to do that, but her request will definitely put a burden on me.
If that’s the case,…..
“…… is back okay?”
“Eh?”
“Now I can lend you my chest in addition to my back.”
“….”
I hear a gasp behind me.
Then, after a short silence.
“…… then, I’d like to borrow your chest …….”
“…… got it.”
Permission to touch a little bit.
It’s called male nature.
I rolled over and faced Hina.
Then, she immediately jumped into my chest.
“Remembering it ……, did you get scared?”
I asked as I held Hina close and patted her head, and she nodded cockily in my chest.
“….. use it as much as you want.”
“Thank you.”
As if she was gradually getting used to it, the stiffness in her body that had been there before disappeared.
There was no movement to refuse, so I guess I
don’t hate it
…… her warmth is making me feel that way, I wonder.
“…… or is it too hot for you?”
I was curious, but she did not reply.
“Hina?”
I loosened my hold on her and looked inside her chest, where she was sleeping with a lovely sleeping breath.
“…Good night, Hina.”
Looking at her sleeping form, which was dangerously cute and almost defenseless, Hina’s name naturally came out of my mouth.
The only thing is, that action will soon turn into a regret.
“Good night, Hikaru.”
I heard such a voice from inside my chest.
“Bah….. you, I thought you were asleep.’=”
When she looked up and hugged me again, Hina began to giggle.
That voice is so comfortable.
Just when I thought the laughter had subsided, she called me
“Hikaru”
“W-what?”
“Thanks!”
“No, I’m glad you enjoyed it.”
“Yeah. The school trip is coming up soon, right? If you haven’t decided who you want to go around with on your free time, why don’t you go around with me?”
If someone asks me to do something like that with an upturned look, there’s no way I can refuse.
Besides, I also wanted to hang out with Hina. So…
“I’d love to. Besides, that’s what I wanted to do from the moment I decided where to go.”
“Yay! …… Then, good night, Hikaru.”
As I desperately looked away from Hina, she put her forehead on my chest and got ready to go to sleep again.
I said as I tightened my grip on her a little.
“Good night, Hina.”
▼Sakine’s Diary▼
Today was Onee chan’s birthday, but she said she was going to stay at Onii chan’s house, so my mom and I played “Orusuban” together.
Tomorrow is onee chan birthday party, so I’m really looking forward to it.
But Sakine also wants to go to onii chan house someday.
I was surprised at how well my mother played onee chan’s role in the pretend play.
I want to meet onii chan and onee chan ……
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