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(*Mikan viewpoint)
My mom and dad do not get along, to be honest.
When I was a child, I used to be frightened by their loud voices whenever they fought, but once I got used to it, I didn’t mind so much.
Then, when I began to have some sense of the world and common sense, I understood why they didn’t get along with each other so well.
— well, they just weren’t the same kind of people in the first place.
They got irritated over the slightest thing, and were bothered by the slightest thing.
These things would pile up, and they would surely start fighting with each other.
Why did you get married? I thought
But I don’t think I’m the only one who’s unhappy about this, and I’m not the only one who’s had it rough.
My friend’s parents are divorced, too, and I know it’s not good, but I know it can happen to anyone.
But I love my mom and dad.
They fight, but sometimes I’m so happy to see them laughing together when they watch TV, and I love that time so much that I even join them in watching it.
So …… I kind of expected it, but I was sad.
When I got that call from my mom in the middle of the study group, I thought, “Oh, finally.”
I knew it was coming, but I almost cried.
But I tried not to cry in front of everyone. I didn’t want to worry them and put them in a gloomy mood, and I also wanted to forget about it at least when I was with everyone…
”…… but Ikkun wouldn’t let me go, would he?”
I took a bath, brushed my teeth, and when the clock had finished its round.
I was in Ikkun’s room, just zoning out. I sat on the bed and mumbled like a complainer.
There was some late-night TV shopping going on in the room, and I doubted he could hear me because of the noise, but I didn’t feel like talking out loud.
Suddenly, I glanced at Ikkun’s face, who was sitting beside me, silently listening.
Then —-.
“Well, I didn’t know if there was a reason for that.”
Ikkun said a little apologetically.
“I’m sorry …… for making you say something that was difficult to say.”
“Well, I was the one who wanted you to listen. Well, I thought you were being too forceful when you grabbed my arm when I tried to run away.”
But I had to let it out somewhere, my mind was probably tired.
If I didn’t complain or whatever, I would have blamed my father and mother and …… maybe I would have suddenly lost the thread and bothered my friends and others.
Perhaps Ikkun anticipated this as well..
(But maybe I’m overthinking it to that extent. ……)
I don’t think even the overly perceptive Raika chan could have done that.
If someone could do that, they wouldn’t be an esper, but someone who already knows me better than I know myself.
“I feel like …… the air has gone dark. Do you have anything interesting to say?”
“For the first time in my life, I’ve been asked to do something reckless. I don’t have the comedic ability to get a good laugh after a rather heavy story. ……”
“Eeh But I don’t like the dark atmosphere!”
Yes, dark atmosphere doesn’t suit me.
Whenever I’m with Ikkun, I’m always laughing and having fun,……, and recently my heart should be pounding.
Yeah, that’s why it’s weird—–why I get so angry.
“I can’t talk about fun, but ……”
Ikkun turns off the TV, which is just playing.
“I’m going to try to refresh your mind so that you can have fun.”
“Hee, I’m curious.”
Holding my knees, I waited for Ikkun to speak …… and see what he would spin out.
Then, Ikkun slowly opened his mouth, as if choosing his words somewhat.
“Ayase,…… you’re angry, aren’t you?”
“….. huh?”
“For some reason, I feel angry at the phrase in the middle. In fact, if you were just really sad, you wouldn’t have cried shamelessly or tried to talk about something positive at this stage.”
My heart jumps.
“I’m sure I’d be angry too if I heard what they had to say. It is true that it is not unusual for parents to get divorced nowadays. If there had been any signs of such a divorce, it would have been a matter of time before it happened. That’s just a story for the convenience of the parents, and Ayase’s convenience isn’t taken into account, right?”
……If you ask me, that’s true.
It’s just that my dad and mom don’t get along. I’m on good terms with them both.
Before hearing my story, they told me such a story on their own. …… My opinion was nowhere in the story that was landed on.
“It’s someone’s family situation, I’m not in a position to say anything great about it, so …… I’ll talk as Ayase’s ally. tell your story, taking into account only Ayase’s story.”
Ikkun looked straight at me when he said that…
“Be very angry with them, and hate them. Ignore the circumstances of your parents, and yell at them. ……They made their decision without considering Ayase, and even Ayase deserves that much.”
As I took in those words, my heart – in my mind – got a little fuzzy.
I was convinced by what Ikkun said, of course. If they don’t consider it, I don’t consider it. An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, as they say.
(But I wonder…..)
I wonder if it’s okay if I do that.
It makes me wonder, too…
“But, you know…”
Ikkun ignores my doubts and gives a small laugh.
“Ayase is not a cold person who can do that kind of thing. She’s so kind, I’m sure she’ll be swayed by the question, “Is it okay if I do that?””
I wonder how he can tell. …… Did I look that obvious?
“Y-yeah”
“But if things continue like this, Ayase will just put up with it. On the other hand, if you hold a grudge or get angry, it might just create a rift and destroy the relationship you’ve had so far.”
“If it were that ……”
What am I supposed to do?
Should I be patient? Should I get angry?
I don’t really want to get angry and see my dad and mom’s sad faces …… honestly.
If I went home now, I might hurt them …… by spewing out all these feelings in my chest.
I didn’t want to go home.
“I-I ……”
Tears were welling up in my eyes.
And then…
“Don’t worry, Ayase ……, I know a way to properly vent your anger without hurting anyone.”
Ikkun wiped my tears with his finger,
“Ayase should be happy.”
He said,
“You can make lots of money, or you can do what you like and live your life. …… them two may have been unhappy, but you are happy, and you can show it to them”
“………………”
“And then, you see! Picture it, the frustrated faces of your parents who have one foot in misery after doing that so much! I think it’s the most painful and exhilarating thing you’ve ever seen!”
Ikkun did not stop my tears any longer, which did not stop even if he wiped them away.
Instead, he looked into my face with a gentle smile.
“……but I’m sure Ayase prefers the smiling faces of her parents. But you know, if you feel that way…….won’t it make you feel a little better? Sad things will become a bit of a whine when you’re happy.”
Don’t put up with it, but set a goal to achieve it someday.
Accept the reality of the present.
It’s sad, but if you become happy, all your problems will be solved.
I’m sure that’s what Ikkun is trying to say.
(Why does he understand me so much? ……?)
Because he sees me as me? Because you are compatible with me?
……No, I don’t care either way.
Because…
“F-fufu…….. yes, I guess so. Maybe I’ll do that.”
“Of course, it is possible to talk it over once. Maybe it won’t be overturned, but if it is, you should be happy to …… look back on it and be happy. If you want me to help, I’m happy to help. Just keep my story in the back of your mind.”
And finally, Ikkun said…
“I’m on Ayase’s side no matter what the outcome.”
He gave me the words I wanted the most, at the timing I wanted the most.
“Thank you, Ikkun.”
I wiped my own tears.
My body understood that I didn’t need to cry anymore,……, I thought.
“Okay! I’ll go home and talk ! And if it doesn’t work, I’ll be happy!
I’m going to laugh at my selfish parents and say, “Suck it up!””
“Oh, that’s the spirit!”
“I’m gonna slap them with my heel while they’re laughing at me!”
“Oh, you really shouldn’t have done that!”
I’m still bewildered, but I feel better.
Because, even if I was depressed, I knew exactly what I should be aiming for.
(No, it doesn’t mean I’m clear. ……)
I lay down on the bed and got under the covers.
Then, I turned to Ikkun and said…
“Ikkun, let’s sleep together today.”
“….Why?”
When I said that, Ikkun’s expression instantly froze.
“Well, don’t you hate the floor anyway? It’s small, but I think it’s better than waking up in the morning worrying about it.”
“No, no, no, no! I tend to forget in the somber atmosphere from earlier, I’m a man!? We’re living under the same roof and in the same bed, even if the mistake approaches me and taps me on the shoulder. Isn’t this a strange situation?!”
“Eh, even if you put it that way”
I mean, it made me clear what I was going to do from now on, or rather, it made me resolve to do it again.
“You said it, didn’t you?”
I smile mischievously at Ikkun.
“You said that I should be happy.”
Someone who understands me, cares about me, and gives me the words I want when I want them.
—My first love.
If I have to be happy, …… I will definitely have this person.
I have not heard why Raika chan and Hiya chan are after Ikkun, but I am sure that they are sworn enemies.
They are enemies who want the same person to be by their side.
(But I won’t let them beat me.)
I rolled up the futon and said to the upset Ikkun…
“I’m going to sleep with you today….. I’m so happy just to have Ikkun by my side♪”
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