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“It’s a fine day, Feal!”
“……”
The next day, when I went to school at the academy, Grendel-san spoke to me in a cheerful voice, but I was unable to reply and fell silent because I was not able to speak according to his tension, which was not very good for me right now.
“What’s wrong with your empty eyes? If you don’t sleep well────”
As Grendel-san was talking to me, Charlotte-san, who is next to me, took Grendel-san to a little distance away from me.
“Grendel, don’t talk to Al right now …… because he doesn’t feel well right now.”
“I thought Charlotte Anastasia was in a dark mood yesterday, and today Feal is not feeling so good. ……? You did a great job getting Charlotte Anastasia back on her feet, but if you’re feeling down yourself, that’s not good ……, but unlike Charlotte Anastasia, I can speak strongly about Feal.”
“Wait.”
When Grendel san was about to step forward to me, Charlotte san seemed to hold him back with her voice.
“I’ll take care of Al, you stay out of it Grendel.”
“Charlotte Anastasia may not understand, but sometimes it’s only because we are men that we are able to open up to each other.”
“The relationship between me and Al is not going to be defeated by something as simple as just being the same gender. …… Anyway, I’ll take care of Al, and you don’t have to do anything, Grendel.”
“…… I see, that’s great Charlotte Anastasia, if you insist that much, I’ll do nothing.”
Grendel san left Charlotte san and this time he did not come to me.
Then Charlotte san came to me.
I didn’t hear anything in the conversation, but I couldn’t help but wonder what they were talking about ……, but that’s not the point right now.
“Al, are you okay? You could have taken the day off from school, you know?
“But If I did that, Charlotte san said she would take the day off too because she wanted to be there for me, and she didn’t listen to anything I said.”
“Because I want to be with Al.”
“…I can’t afford to cause trouble for Charlotte san, even if it’s just for me.”
“Trouble? No, I don’t think of it as trouble. ……I do whatever I want to do for the people who are important to me.”
You want to do whatever you want to do for the people who are important to you……huh
That statement raised a big question for me,…… something I’d like to ask right now, but it’s something I’m not likely to ask in the academy.
“…… Charlotte san, can I have some time when I get back today?”
“Yes! I’ll give you as much of my time as I can for Al.”
“….Thank you very much.”
I spent the whole day today in a daze, taking lectures that felt neither long nor short, and before I knew it, all the lectures were over.
And when we returned to the Anastasia family mansion by carriage, I asked Charlotte-san to give me some time as I had promised her, and we sat next to each other on the bed in Charlotte-san’s room.
Charlotte-san did not say anything.
I am sure she was waiting for me to say something.
I opened my mouth to say something, because if I didn’t open my mouth after she gave me time, nothing would go on.
“I just have one question for you, Charlotte san.”
“Yes, ask me anything.”
Charlotte-san said in a gentle tone of voice.
……I was a little reluctant to ask, but I still desperately needed the answer now, so I asked Charlotte-san.
“Charlotte-san,…… do you have any regrets about coming to this world after the person you love?”
“…… regrets?”
“Because, in your previous life, Charlotte san was able to do anything and was rich, right? She said it was painful, but perhaps she has developed a new awareness over the course of her long life, and she can live without feeling it as pain. I think there was a possibility….Besides, if she had never met that person in the first place, wouldn’t Charlotte san be able to live in her previous life? If that’s the case, don’t you think it would be better if you never met that person?”
“No, I don’t.”
“…..!”
Charlotte san’s eyes, which answered so clearly, had a strong will in them and …… I felt very dazzled right now.
Then, Charlotte-san continued.
“If I had a future where I would meet him and not be able to live in my previous life, or I would live in my previous life without meeting him, I would definitely choose the path where I would meet him and not be able to live in my previous life….I don’t think anyone else can understand this, but I really didn’t have any fun in my life until I met him, Aruto-kun…so I don’t think there was any fun in my life even if I lived without meeting him. I think so.”
“I think there were a lot of possibilities. ────”
“That may be true, there was a possibility…but the person I am now is not that possibility, but the person I am who was able to meet Aruto-kun, who is an absolute being for me….That’s why I came to this world after him, where I could meet him again and love him again…I don’t think I’d regret it.”
Charlotte san said with a bright smile.
…… I see.
I thought I had robbed Reijo-san of her future, but …… in the end, I thought it was my fault and I was only looking out for myself.
But when I properly look at Reijo-san now …… Charlotte-san, Charlotte-san has such a bright smile on her face.
It doesn’t matter about my previous life or anything, I’m happy just because of that, and that’s all that matters…If that’s the case.
“Charlotte san, I have something to tell you ────.”
As I was about to tell Charlotte san who I was, she continued to speak up.
“So, if I ever meet him, I’ll lock him in my room so I don’t have any regrets like I did then! If it were my room, even if someone who was aiming for the position of Duke of the Anastasia family came, it would be difficult for him to get through the guards and come to this mansion where my room is located, and even if he came to my room, I can protect you. I feed him the food I cook for him, we meet every night, and we sleep in the same bed…wait, I’m sorry, but I couldn’t stop imagining my ideal life with him, did you say something?”
……I realized my mistake when Charlotte told me that she did not regret coming to this world after losing her bright potential in her previous life, along with the reasons why she did so, and at the same time, she was smiling brightly at me. I felt very happy about the current situation.
So, for now, there is no more reason for me to think about it, and I will be able to live my life again as before.
…… but ──── if I reveal myself, will I have to live the life that Charlotte san just described?
…… That’s not a good idea.
“……It’s nothing.”
“Is that so?”
“Yes,…… but I’m feeling better for now, so I’m good.”
“Yeah, it seems so. …… you did a good job.”
“…… sorry to worry you.”
“No, I’m glad you’re feeling better, Al.”
After saying that, Charlotte-san gently patted my head.
For …… Charlotte-san’s sake, I’ll reveal my true identity someday.
But it’s not now…….I absolutely have to keep my true identity hidden until Charlotte-san’s values of an ideal life change, if at all.
I thought it would be another painful process, but still,──── if I thought about what awaits me after that, even that time would seem like a fun time.
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