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I have always been a better person than others. Apparently, I was born with a natural talent, and I was clearly superior to everyone around me in sports and studies.
Therefore, no matter how hard my younger brother Yuito tried, he could not beat me. No matter how hard Yuito tried, he could not stand up to my talent.
That is why I began to look down on Yuito. Needless to say, I was intoxicated with a sense of superiority over him.
However, there was one person that even this Kujo Ayato could never beat. That person was my older childhood friend, Yuuki Kano. Kano san was a person with a higher standard than me. On the other hand, Suzuno, Kano san’s younger sister, was rather ordinary.
When I was a child, I used to often take shots at Kano san, who was the oldest and the loudest, but I still clearly remember how frustrated I was that I could not win at all no matter what genre I tried to compete in.
At first, I thought that Kano san was an enemy that I had to defeat at all costs, but gradually she became a person that I cared about.
I was thinking about Kano san 24/7 in order to win, and as a result, I fell in love with her, which is a common pattern in the beginning of a love relationship.
“….Even so, Kano san chose Yuito, not me.”
In response to my question about whether she liked Yuito, Kano san said yes, but her face was so serious that it didn’t look like a lie or a joke.
I was not willing to admit that Kano san liked Yuito, but after what I had just witnessed, I had no choice but to accept it. I was in such a severe shock that I can’t remember how I got home from Waseda University after that.
“Why does it have to be Yuito……”
I was the one who let out those words, but I knew the cause of it. The reason is that, unlike Yuito,I’m a coward and have absolutely no courage at all.
When I am faced with a situation that is beyond my ability to handle, my body immediately stops moving and I’m unable to do anything.
“…That’s why I couldn’t help Kano san at that time either.”
I had a desire to help Kano san, who was abused in elementary school, but in the end I was unable to do anything about it.
Even though Yuito, who was supposed to be inferior to me, mustered up the courage to act. In the end, Yuito was beaten up, but after that, they stopped bullying Kano san.
I’m sure Kano san must have seen Yuto as a savior.
That must have been when I started to feel inferior to Yuito.
There was no doubt that I was superior to him in every way. However, I started to think of myself as incompetent, not even close to Yuito’s level.
It was around this time that I began to be harsh towards Yuito. I managed to maintain my self-esteem by doing so. But when I was stuck in the movie theater, my self-esteem was blown to pieces in an instant.
“I wish I was in Yuito’s place.”
I don’t need all the talents in studies and sports, I want the strength of heart that Yuito has more than anything else. Why didn’t God make our role reverse?
Especially recently, Yuito has been shining brighter than when he quit soccer because of his complex towards me, and I’m really jealous of him. Yuito’s presence is too bright for me now.
“It’s no wonder Kano san likes the brave Yuito and not a coward like me……”
If I were in Kano san’s shoes, I would probably fall in love with Yuito. I think Kano san completely saw through my true nature, which is why she wouldn’t accept me no matter how many times I confessed to her.
“…..I’m sure Suzuno will be disillusioned when she gets to know the real me.”
The only reason Suzuno likes me is because she only sees me as the high-spec Kujo Ayato. People around me, including Suzuno, are overestimating me and looking at me blindly.
I wonder what kind of reaction they will have if I were to unmask myself. Just imagining that scared me beyond words.
“What the hell am I supposed to do now?”
No matter how much I thought about it, I would probably never come to a conclusion. My thoughts were in a completely negative endless loop.
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