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When I was in high school—.
Kanzaki Madoka was a senior one year above me.
She wasn’t someone as bright and beautiful as Ayana, but rather a quiet, plain person who, when asked about her to another senior a year older than me, nine out of ten would answer, [Huh, who is that?].
I met her in the school library.
“Is this seat taken?”
“Ah, n-no…..”
There were no other seats available, so I asked her and sat down next to her.
When I first met Kanzaki, she never made eye contact with me.
It seems like she hasn’t really talked to the opposite sex…or rather, to her friends.
Then I met her in the library more and more often, and after I talked to her a number of times, she gradually started to smile at me.
That change made me happy at the time.
The more I talked to her, the less gloomy my impression of her at first became and the more she became cheerful only to me. We gradually grew closer.
When I was in my second year of high school and Kanzaki was in her third year, we started dating.
She was the second girlfriend in my life.
But my friends wondered why.
–Why did you go out with Kanzaki Madoka?
I was asked many times.
I know her as a cheerful talker.
But for those who had no contact with her, she had a terrible reputation: she wouldn’t make eye contact with them, and when they tried to talk to her, her voice was so quiet that they couldn’t understand what she was saying, and she wasn’t very cute.
I won’t say it outright, but people questioned me.
But I didn’t care about that.
Even if she was plain.
Even if she wasn’t cute.
I enjoyed being with her, so it didn’t matter.
I liked her no matter what she was like, and I wanted her to stay the same forever.
But when she went off to college, she changed into a different person.
When I first entered college, I kept in touch with her a lot.
But as the months went by, one or two months, the frequency decreased.
If it was only this much, I thought that she had become busy with her college life.
Her appearance changed little by little.
In high school, she wore glasses and had bangs that grew long enough to cover her eyes.
She cut them off and changed her hair color from black to bright, flashy brown.
This was also the result of her new friends in college who taught her how to be fashionable—or so I thought.
…No, that’s what I told myself, not wanting to put into words the anxiety that crossed my mind.
“──Is that okay? It’s like in the AV I saw yesterday, My girlfriend wenty to college, but before I knew it, I was cuckolded by a senior.]”
My friends, who knew about her change, looked worried.
I didn’t say it out loud either, but the change in her is unusual.
But I tried to believe that it was not true.
I was trying to believe that Kanzaki Madoka, who didn’t even know the word “love” until she met me, was having an affair……
But as time went by, my doubts and fears grew.
She would never cheat on me.
Even though I thought so, I could not believe it.
“Madoka san, what do you mean….?”
“……Eh?”
Kanzaki had asked me to stay away from her at campus.
The reason is that it is embarrassing to be seen by everyone.
I broke that promise and went to see her, but what I saw was a man two years older than me named Jinguuji Tooru.
When she saw me, she hurriedly turned her face away.
But she immediately asked for help, not from me, but from Jinguuji, who was holding her arms around her.
“Tooru kun, t-this guy ! This is the creepy stalker guy I was telling you about !”
I couldn’t understand the meaning of the words Kanzaki spat out.
“Hmm? Ah, now that I think about it, that’s what you were talking about.”
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There were Kanzaki, Jinguuji, and a few of their friends there.
There are also students who attend the same university around them.
Hearing Kanzaki’s words, all eyes were on me.
I still did not understand Kanzaki’s words, but I could hear the voices of the people around me.
“Eh, so he’s a stalker.”
“No way, that’s scary…….”
No !
I tried to retort and turned toward the voice, but the people around me fled in fright, saying, [Ugh, he stared at me.]
But the number of onlookers around me does not decrease.
New people come to take the place of those who have left, and they listen to the conversation around them and look at me and smile a little.
No, no, no, I screamed in my heart, but no sound came out.
Seeing my confused expression, Jinguuji looks at me with a snicker.
“Hey, you stalker !”
He looks at me even worse as he shouts loudly so that everyone around him can hear.
“I’ll ask you, what’s your relationship with my girlfriend?”
“I-I’m her boyfriend…….”
My voice becomes quieter.
I was worried about the stares of the people around me, and also because she called me a “stalker,” which made me unsure of my own words.
Hearing my unconfident reply, Jinguuji once again raised his voice so that everyone around him could hear.
“Boyfriend? You don’t sound very sure of yourself for that, do you? Isn’t it really just a stalker’s fantasy?”
“No, it’s not ! I’m……I’m……”
The moment I tried to deny it, I locked eyes with Kanzaki Madoka.
Does she look apologetic? Are you upset that my existence has been discovered by Jinguuji? I don’t know about that.
But then I came back to myself.
──Oh, why do I like Kanzaki? I wondered.
♦
Even now, many years later, there is something I still remember without forgetting.
That look on Jinguuji’s face when he looked down on me and made fun of me.
And the look on Kanzaki’s face when she called me a stalker and made me feel uncomfortable.
The faces of their friends who were just passing the time or venting their stress.
The faces of the people around me who had nothing to do with it and just laughed at me right then and there.
I couldn’t tell myself that it was over, that it was in the past.
No matter how trivial the matter may be, I remember it at a moment’s notice. The wounds I had once sustained were gouged out by trivial events, and continued to bleed constantly.
“───Did you feel refreshed, Senpai?
But only while I was holding Mei in my arms, I did not feel pain.
In fact, no matter how much I remembered it, it actually felt good.
“…Kukuj, it’s been a long time since we’ve had sex, it felt so good. Right, Senpai♡”
Before I knew it, the time had changed from day to night, and the room was dark.
I didn’t have the energy to turn on the light or wipe my sweaty body, so I just lay there on the bed.
I was lying on the bed next to her, and Mei, who was also lying next to me, did not try to move away from me, and while she was naked, she laughed happily, saying, [As expected, Senpai is amazing.].
“……Mei.”
“Yes, what’s wrong?”
“You said earlier that Jinguuji threatened you, didn’t you?”
“Yes, I did.”
I see, I nodded my head.
“Mei, will you obey him when he threatens you?”
“I have no intention of obeying any man other than Senpai. It seems like he hasn’t given up on Mei yet, but Mei’s only master is Senpai.”
“I see. I’m gonna be your manager from today on. I’ve been told by the company to support Mei so that she can do her delivery activities without any problems.”
“Yes.”
“When you say you’re being threatened, does that mean he’s trying to interfere with your activities?”
Mei nodded her head while staring at me.
“Yes.”
“Then I have to eliminate him by any means necessary, right?”
“Yes, that’s right♡”
I hugged Mei, who smiled happily.
When the feverish warmth of her body is close to me again, she whispers in my ear.
“Mei belongs only to Senpai, so…..you can’t run away from me, Senpai♡”
When she was an idol, she captivated many men.
Now, as a VTuber, she has fans all over the world on the Internet.
And most of all, Mei, who Jinguuji couldn’t get over no matter how hard he tried, is dependent on me.
I hold her repeatedly in my arms, the envy of everyone.
There was no way anyone who had tasted such exquisite fruit would let it go easily.
Once a person has fallen, there is no easy way back.
Especially for someone like me who has fallen to the bottom.
I’m a true scumbag who gets off on monopolizing and making a popular girl that a lot of guys want to hold……
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