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*Nako Mei POV
I sit in my usual chair and take a deep breath in front of my usual computer.
It is not yet 7:00 p.m. and a lot of people are waiting for Mei’s LIVE.
The comment section is in good spirits today.
“Good.”
I say a few small words and start the LIVE feed.
Mei confirms that Kanatsu Kanako on the right side of the screen is moving, and Mei plays the role of everyone’s favorite Kanatsu Kanako .
“Today, we’re gonna play everyone’s favorite quiz game !”
Today, Mei is in the form of a young girl.
As Mei speaks in a cheerful voice, the words in the comments section flow with great energy.
Some people type in a short [I’m so happy] while others type in longer comments.
The flow of comments is so fast that it is hard to tell who made what comment, but everyone is talking to Kanatsu Kanako.
“I wanted to play this game so badly !”
I can’t reply to all of them, but I read the comments and reply.
I think the reason Kanako is so popular is because she talks all the time during the stream.
Everyone is different, but some VTubers and streamers read a lot of comments, while others don’t read as much.
I think it’s fine if you can tailor your stream to suit that person, but Mei throws out words and is happy when she gets a proper response.
One-way communication is lonely.
But it’s not easy to read comments that don’t last even a second on the screen, to play games so that people can enjoy watching, and to talk continuously so that there’s not much time for silence.
My throat always hurts when I stream.
But I wanna do my best because the people who support me are happy.
I know it sounds bad to say this, but there are many ways to skip a game.
But that kind of attitude is easily detected by the people who support you.
During my time as an idol, I have seen people who do random things and don’t care about their fans disappear.
Even if they are seen with such a negligent attitude and say, [I’ll do my best from now on !] but the people who had supported them up until now–they already have someone to replace them.
“I’m having trouble with this quiz, please help me !”
When I call out to everyone watching, the flow of comments quickly becomes fast and furious.
Some are simply hints for the quiz, others say things like [cute] or [I love you.] I get so many comments that I can’t read them all, but I’m happy.
And when Mei can’t read the comments, some people want her to read theirs, so they send some money.
The amount of money they send ranges from a few hundred yen to sometimes tens of thousands of yen.
“waa, thank you. I’ll read your comment at the end.”
I always read the comments at the end of the stream.
Sometimes I spend several hours just reading the comments. But it’s not hard at all.
Because people give me money even though they just want me to read their comments.
I want you to think about it purely. There is no business where you can get tens of thousands of yen for reading just a few words of comments. If I said it was hard for me to read them, I would feel bad for everyone.
That’s why I read them all. And I will say thank you to them.
However, some people lose the ability to do such things as a matter of course as the years go by.
Some people become more and more careless and take it for granted, or worse, they think, [What, you want me to read comments for this amount?] Or worse.
Fans will not overlook that kind of attitude.
They say love is blind, but there are fans who will forgive you no matter what you do, and others who will lose interest in you at the slightest thing.
Then, little by little, the fans leave, and before you know it, those who were fans may be rooting for other girls.
That’s the moment I hate.
“That’s it for today’s stream ! Good night, everyone !”
After confirming that I had cut the stream, I let out a deep breath.
“So tiring…….”
It was fun, but my throat was sore and I was tired.
I looked at the time and saw that it was past midnight. Maybe I should go take a shower.
“I’m so glad you were watching me, Senpai.”
A few times during the stream, a nasty comment caught my eye.
I was like, [this guy] but the comments were quickly erased and I never received any comments from that person.
As promised, he checked the comments.
That makes me happy to know I’m not working alone.
“I have to work hard.”
Kanatsu Kanako is a very popular VTuber right now, but I don’t know how long that will last.
She’ll lose fans due to minor mistakes.
Or a very attractive competitor may appear and take her fans away.
I can’t be too proud.
I’m always and everywhere professional.
I’ve been aware of that ever since I was an idol.
But, but, but……
“Oh, when I think about Senpai, I kind of wanna have sex with Senpai♡.”
Relationships with the opposite sex are the most common reason for flames, but no matter how much pride I have in this job, I don’t want to put up with that.
Because both idol work and VTuber work are incredibly stressful.
And somewhere in the back of my mind–no, Mei doesn’t think of herself as Kanatsu Kanako.
Everyone likes Kanatsu Kanako because she is her, not Nako Mei.
Both the idol Nako Mei and the VTuber Kanatsu Kanako have decided to play their roles seriously for years and decades, and to do their best to please everyone who supports them.
But people don’t love Nako Mei.
There is no guarantee that they will continue to love her as she turns 20, 30, 40, 50, 60, and so on.
And when they get tired of it, they will easily support someone else.
There are countless idols and VTubers in this world.
To take an extreme example, if I were to compare a 40-year-old Mei with another VTuber in her teens, I would choose the younger teenager without even comparing them.
Someday, this popularity will decline, and I will be overtaken by another girl.
Knowing this, Mei has decided to live a normal life outside of the screen–no, Senpai taught me to live that way.
“Fans will leave me one day. But Senpai, even though he left me, came back to me like this. I have to do my best. I have to work hard and keep being the attractive Mei I am.”
He taught me how to talk to the opposite sex, how to keep in touch, how to date, how to hold hands, how to kiss, and how to feel comfortable with sex.
I have never thought of going out with someone other than Senpai.
Because Mei knows what’s wrong with herself. There is no way she would get along with anyone else.
She is naive, indecisive, abusive, and dependent.
For such a no-good Mei, there is only one Senpai. I am happiest when I’m tied to Senpai.
“So if I don’t try my best…..that woman will take him away.”
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