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I sneak into a hospital room where only Hina is there. There I find Hina, who has become weak and bedridden. I can’t bear to see the person I love in such a state, it’s too painful.
“Hina, can you hear me?”
Hina moves her head to look at me. I don’t know if she recognizes me. but I have no choice but to tell her.
“Hina, I want you to listen. You don’t need to think about regaining your memories. Just seal it away. There’s nothing good to be gained from remembering.”
“……”
“I’m the only one who knows the whole story, so I’ll tell you the truth. What happened that day.”
I decided to put out there what I had thought about beforehand.
The truth is different from the truth. If this will make Hina feel better, even a little.
There was a possibility that Hina, who had lost her memory, would resent me. But… as long as it made her feel better, that was fine.
“I’m the one who caused that incident. I’m the one who called you to that place, caused the incident, and created the opportunity for you to lose your memory, Hina. So you don’t have to think that it’s your own fault.”
“……”
“You can hate me. So …… have a hope to live.”
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The next day, Konohana Sakuya visits her hospital room.
She also became anxious about her sister, who had lost all hope in life and was getting weaker day by day.
She wanted to do something to cheer her up, but she didn’t know how to do it.
Sakuya regrets that although she thought she cared for her sister, she did not understand her sister at all.
When she entered Hina’s hospital room, Hina was half-awake from her bed.
“Hina!”
“Nee sama.”
Her tone was still suspicious. She has not regained her memory and is calling her sister because she was told to do so. Sakuya was also pained by such stranger-like words.
“What’s wrong? And you ate your meal too. That’s good…”
Hina hadn’t been eating properly and was getting weaker and weaker. But today, she was seen to have had breakfast. That was a relief.
“I think I may have remembered why I lost my memory.”
“What?!”
Sakuya has only known Hina since she was brought to the hospital room after her accident.
The next time they met, Hina had already lost her memory. The only person who knew the situation was an ordinary man named Kogure Ryoma. However, Sakuya really didn’t want to ask Ryoma about it.
If this accident had been caused by a fight between herself and Hina, …… The perfect Konohana sakuya would not tolerate even the slightest blemish.
“It seems that the boy who was supposedly at the scene of the accident with me is the source of everything ……. …… so I decided to live a different path.”
Hina’s tone was as if her memories were muddled. It was not clear if she was talking to someone who had told her or if she was remembering.
It seems that she hasn’t regained all of her memories, but that was enough for Sakuya.
“…I see. So that man is the one who made Hina go through this. There’s no way I can forgive him. I’ll never forgive him for the hurt he caused the Konohana family.”
If it was all Kogure Ryouma’s fault, then he must pay the consequences. Sakuya made a solemn vow.
“Hina, I’ll protect you. You don’t have to think about your memories anymore.”
“Yes, nee sama.
After I was discharged from the hospital, I first cleaned my room. I threw away all the airplane-related goods I had collected.
My father, mother, and even Reo were worried about me.
But it was okay. It would be …… hard for me if I left them there. Being forced to give up on my dreams…… may not blow over right away.
Until I found a new hobby, I immersed myself in babysitting Hiyori and housework in general.
I made Hiyori’s clothes and put a lot of effort into sewing-related things. I had to keep busy or I would go crazy.
Then I went to school for the first time since leaving the hospital. When I entered the classroom, I noticed a strange atmosphere.
“Hey, Kogure!”
A male classmate, whom I had never spoken to before, called out to me with great force.
His expression is very grim, and his eyes seem to be filled with resentment toward me, but that’s not all. The whole class looked at me the same way.
“I heard you injured Konohana’s sister. It’s a rumor in the school. It’s all about what you’ve done!”
“Whaa!”
It’s true that I had decided to take the blame for everything Hina had caused. But I never imagined that rumors would spread throughout the school.
“Did you hear? That guy was stalking Konohana-san.”
“Wow, that’s gross. Konohana-san is beautiful too. Apparently he was trying to use her status as a librarian to try and hit on her.”
“She was so shocked that she got amnesia.”
It’s not just my classmates.
I was the object of hatred from everyone in school. I looked into the source and it seemed to be Konohana-senpai after all. Hina told me that it was her hatred towards me that led to this violent act.
I should have told the truth. But I couldn’t say it. I could not tell her because there was a possibility that she would regain her memory and break her heart.
If that happened, it would be meaningless for me to take the blame. So I admitted that I was the man who stalked my classmate and caused her to lose her memory.
“I heard that you called Hina over there and hurt her very badly. Is that story true?”
“Yes, that is correct.”
“Then you must make amends for that.”
“……”
One day, Konohana-senpai stops me. Konohana-senpai already seemed to know, but she was trying to hear my mouth or the facts.
“Is Hina doing well?”
“Don’t call Hina that! You fool, you hurt my sister! You should pay for your crimes.”
“Yes, I do. If it makes Hina feel better, I’ll accept it.”
“Tch! The perpetrator is acting all high and mighty. I won’t let Hina attend this junior high school anymore. She won’t be hurt in this school.”
Hina will not come to this school. In other words, we won’t be able to see Hina anymore. But maybe that’s okay. If I meet her badly, she will regain her memory.
If that happens, the lie I told will be exposed immediately.
In addition to the eye incident, there is a possibility that Hina could be further hurt.
…Even if you hate me, as long as you’re healthy, that’s fine.
“Senpai, please take care of Hina.”
“Kuh!”
An angry Konohana-senpai punches me and slams me into the wall. It hurts, but… it’s nothing compared to the emotional wounds.
“Don’t ever show your face in front of me or Hina again!”
We’ll never see each other again.
I would then have a very uncomfortable school life. The equivalent of bullying happened frequently, and it didn’t subside even in the third year of junior high school.
Even though it was true that I had caused the incident, was I hurting Hina by stalking her?
That shouldn’t have been possible.
But it is also significant that I hid the relationship between Hina and me so that it would not be noticed on school.
No one thought that Hina, the prettiest girl in our grade, and I, an average guy in the shadows, would become friends.
To be honest, the past year and a half has been very hard. I was afraid that I might stop going to school at any moment.
The teacher was on Konohana-senpai’s side and seemed to think it was my fault. It was probably thanks to him that I was barely able to attend school.
“Hey, Reo. Stop hanging out with Kogure. You’ll get in trouble too.”
“Shut up.”
Re’s stern face made his classmates shudder.
“I’ve known Ryoma since he was a little boy. I never believe that he is bad. I believe in Ryoma. I don’t think anyone saw the stalker in the first place, so don’t believe the rumors, you idiot!”
Reo was already nearly 180 centimeters tall and had become the most conspicuous student in the junior high school. Reo was never harmed, even if he was with me, who was treated as a tumor. In fact, he had settled into being a good guy who treated me, the tumor, as an equal.
I was in the same class with Reo in the third year of junior high school. I think we were together all the time. When I decided to go to a high school that had a low percentage of my classmates going on to higher education, Reo said he would also apply to that high school. He said it was because the high school had a strong basketball program, but I think he was probably worried about me.
So I owe Reo a debt of gratitude. I want to accomplish what he wants with all my might. That’s why I want to repay him for saying he believes in me.
But what made it more difficult for me was my relationship with women.
I was hated like dirt by the girls because Konohana-senpai was very popular among them.
When you are hated that much, you tend to distance yourself from girls.
This disturbance started around the time I met Hina. I haven’t seen Hina for more than a year.
I don’t know if her memory has returned or not. I feel as if I have become a different person since I gave up my dream of becoming a pilot.
I don’t know when it started, but I started to get nervous when I was with a girl, and my language always took on a respectful tone.
It was because I fell in love. I fell in love with a beautiful woman like Hina, and that’s why I ended up like this.
That’s why I have to stop being in love. I don’t want to go through the same experience again.
I graduated from junior high school and became a high school student. Perhaps it was because I had been ignored by everyone except Reo for more than a year that I seemed to have mastered the art of assimilating with the air. No one but Reo noticesi meanymore.
“I think I’ve found someone I like.”
It was this kind of love consul from Reo that marked the beginning of my high school life. I never fell in love again. With women, I keep my distance and use honorifics. If I don’t get along with them, there will be no problems. I will bear the guilt of hurting Hina for the rest of my life.
“Kogure-kun, can I have a word?”
But I met an incredibly cute girl who shattered my resolve, and we became best friends …… until now
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