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The cheapest APA hotel in the neighborhood. Hirai san and I are sitting next to each other on one side of the twin-bedded room.
Hirai san is not what you would call a pretty girl.
As in the story, when you part your long bangs, your real face is not really cute, but it’s not that you can call it ugly either. She is neither pretty nor ugly.
However, Hirai san’s expression, which must have been considerably distorted by the horrific life she has led, would have been rated as normal, and if she had lived a normal life, she might have been in the cute category.
[T-then at least let me stay in a hotel. …..I’ll just go for a cheap one, like 2,000 yen a night. I’ll do my best to repay you if you rent me a room.
I think I can entertain Ito kun. I can heal any kind of injury with healing, so I can do hard things that most people can’t do.]
Hirai san’s words were enough to get me to rent a hotel room.
“So, how is Hirai san going to entertain me?”
“……Right. To be honest, I was so desperate that I didn’t really think about what exactly I was going to do. –I’ll do whatever Ito-kun wants, but do you have any requests?”
She speaks to me with a slight smile. I hate Hirai san’s smile. It stimulates a trauma that sends chills down my spine and scares the hell out of me.
I think. What should I do to make Hirai san hate me the most?
Two things came to mind.
The first is to send Hirai san back to her house, which I have seen her not liking since a few minutes ago. I had been more abused at school than I had been treated by my father, but Hirai san was probably the opposite. It seems that Hirai san is having a more miserable time at home.
But then, I wouldn’t be having much fun.
And one more thing—
I suddenly struck Hirai san on the left cheek.
“You know what ! You said you would entertain me ! What are you asking me for ideas? Think and act for yourself, you idiot !”
“W-wait. I’m sorry…..d-don’t get mad at me. I’m sorry……”
I hit her on the cheek and yelled at her, and Hirai san started to take off her clothes while crying.
Hirai san doesn’t want me to hate her. She told me that she was afraid of being irrationally angry at her parents.
In other words, Hirai san does not like being scolded. So I yelled at her.
Her clothes were like cotton workout clothes–like gym clothes. The clothes, which were of good quality for being from another world, revealed Limona’s efforts to get those uncoordinated Class A guys to participate in the training.
The underwear is also of good quality, though not as good as the Japanese-made ones.
She must have been treated well because of her 5-star skill. The favorable treatment given to Hirai san in the other world, which could be seen from every part of her story, made it no wonder that she didn’t want to return home.
“Please watch as I do xxxx now.”
Hirai san, who had taken off all of her clothes, began to entertain me.
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“It was so good to have sex with Ito kun. I might get addicted to it.”
“…………”
I enjoyed Hirai san’s entertainment very much. The little smile she had shown before the act disappeared, and Hirai san’s composure disappeared, and she was crying with tears rolling down her face. That was not so good.
It was good at first. It was a lot of fun to torture the crying Hirai san.
But then, in the middle of the game, I was pushed down and squeezed to the hilt. …..I was overwhelmingly superior in the balance of power between me and Hirai san. Even though I knew with all reason that she would never abuse me again, it was incredibly scary to be squeezed by the smiling Hirai san, and yet for some reason I also felt a thrill of excitement.
“….You know? S and M are two sides of the same coin. If you don’t know how to feel either way, you can’t abuse properly.”
Is that what I’m feeling right now?
I felt as if I was being somewhat seen through, and I had a feeling that I would not win this argument with Hirai san, so I dropped the subject.
“……So, come to think of it, Hirai san wasn’t a virgin, but……who did you do it with?”
“Ito kun, are you the type of guy who wouldn’t like it if it wasn’t a virgin?”
“No. I’m not a virgin either. ……But it seems that Hirai san’s experience is unique.”
“Right. It might be special. ……When I was in elementary school, a girl in my class used a glue stick to break my hymen. My first sexual partner was the Sato family’s pet dog.
But if animals and glue sticks are a no, you’re the first.”
What can I say–it was a grotesque experience beyond imagination.
“….I thought you were having sex with Hashida or your father.”
“Hashida kun would never do it with a girl like me. He is as proud as he looks. As for my father, he only made me do it with my mouth at best. Isn’t that disgusting?
I’ve been almost raped more than once in my life, but if I tell everyone about it, they’ll be so creeped out.
Fufu. I bet you regret not having sex with such a woman, don’t you, Ito kun?”
Hirai san’s ridiculing laugh certainly gave me the creeps.
To be honest, I would be lying if I said I didn’t regret it.
Just listening to Hirai san’s sordid experiences makes me want to vomit, and even if I didn’t, the smile she showed me at the end of the act was enough to make me regret it.
But if I honestly admitted that, I felt like I would never get over the trauma of being on the oppressed side, and I didn’t want to do that.
“Right. ……I regret not being able to make you cry out to the end.”
“Fufu. That’s really good, Ito kun. I like that about you.”
“I hate it. I really hate seeing Hirai san’s smile. I really wish you could just cry all the time.”
“Stop it. If you try to seduce me that much, I’ll really fall in love with you and won’t be able to let go. Also, I don’t feel comfortable being called [Hirai san] now, so please call me by my name, Nozomi.”
“…..I hate it so much.”
“It’s okay, Sora. I’ll do anything to have you call me by my name. I’ll even raise my fingernails and let you gouge out my eyeballs.”
“No, that’s fine. No need to go that far. ……Don’t sell your fingernails and eyeballs so cheaply. They’re worth less. ……Nozomi.”
“You’re so sweet, Sola. I’m glad you call me by my name. It’s heartfelt. Besides, you’re the first person who’s ever worked on me. I think I’m going to like you♡”
I’m afraid she’s really swooning and saying it.
……How unloved she has been in her life, this woman. In fact, even this degree of distortion seems to be normal, which is scary.
Even if it wasn’t true, Nozomi’s smiling face was scary.
“Don’t smile. I don’t like your smile.”
“You want me to cry? Okay, fine. You can make me cry as much as you want.”
…..When you say so, it’s not fun anymore.
Besides, I don’t have any motivation at all because I was squeezed out so much earlier. I give up and stare blankly at the ceiling.
Nozomi whispered in my ear.
“……If I can’t go back to that world, at least let me stay by your side. I’ll do anything for you♡”
Considering Nozomi’s personality and everything else I’ve seen, I think Nozomi would really do anything for me. No matter how unethical it may be, no matter how painful it is.
Nozomi is not a beautiful girl. Compared to Rhys, Nozomi is not a beautiful girl at all.
But inside—her devotion to me is probably more than Rhys’s. It’s not about loyalty or obedience.
It’s an obsession and dependence that can no longer be described as loyalty or obedience. …It’s okay, don’t be afraid. If I transfer, I can cool off to another world at any time.
But even so, the flashbacks of past traumas and Nozomi’s strange atmosphere make my heart tremble, but it’s okay–I don’t need to be afraid of Nozomi anymore.
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