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“I’ve been bullied for the past four years, from the time I entered junior high until today, and I’ve been alone at school all the time.”
It must have taken a lot of courage to talk about being bullied, but even so, Kohime told me.
I wonder how strong she is to endure being bullied for four years and continue to go to school.
If it were me, I would have given in to the bullying in a second and stopped going to school.
I wonder if her angelic kindness was formed because of the strength of her heart.
“I haven’t asked her directly, but I think the reason I’m being bullied is because of jealousy. I’m afraid to say it myself, but I seem to be highly regarded by teachers because I have excellent grades and listen to what they say….. I started to attract the attention of a group of people who didn’t think well of me for that.”
It is not hard to understand how the students who are bullying Kohime feel.
Even if there is someone better than you and you work hard to catch up with and overtake that person, if you are faced with overwhelming talent that you can never compete with through hard work alone, you may fall flat and have your heart broken.
When that happens, the only thing the broken person can do is to be jealous of the talented person, and instead of moving forward themselves, they will force the talented person to retreat.
From the point of view of those who bully Kohime, they are probably angry that her heart is not broken in spite of their despicable acts.
That is why the bullies are still bullying her even after four years have passed.
Just to be clear, although I said that I do understand the feelings of those who bully Kohime, I’m not in any way encouraging bullying.
Kohime, who is working tirelessly, should never be bullied due to the bully’s selfish convenience.
“I can understand the feelings of those who bully me. But still, I’ve come to the point where I can’t stand the bullying any longer…….”
Like me, Kohime seems to have a certain understanding of how bullies feel.
Even when she is being bullied, she is able to understand the feelings of the bully.
It is only natural that even Kohime would be worn out and reach her limits after being bullied for four years.
In order for her to stop being bullied, she will have to take such measures as lowering her grades, becoming a delinquent, or, as a final resort, moving to a new house–well, that is not realistic, but it will be necessary.
One might think that after four years, she might be used to being bullied by now, but in the past, it seemed to be as simple as having the contents of her pencil box hidden or losing her textbooks, but now it seems to have escalated a little bit to the point where she is being told unfounded rumors that she does not remember, etc. However, it seems that the situation has been escalating little by little.
I wonder if there is anything I can do to turn her situation around…….
“The reason why I was almost getting hit by a car when I didn’t notice the car approaching at high speed was because I was thinking about how to resolve the situation.”
Was that the reason why Kohime failed to notice the approaching car in the crosswalk?
The reason why she didn’t talk to me about it, as I had just regained consciousness and wasn’t feeling well, wasn’t because Kohime herself didn’t want to talk about being bullied, it was probably a consideration towards me.
She is always kind to me, no matter what the situation.
It is hard to accept the fact that Kohime, who is like a princess in body and soul, as her name suggests, is being bullied because of jealousy from those around her.
“I’m not very cooperative, or I don’t like to be influenced by others, or I don’t agree with them. So I’ve been getting good grades all my life and helping the teachers even though they say I’m a teacher’s pet…… So it’s not that I don’t hold myself accountable.”
“No, you don’t.”
When I heard Kohime’s comment, I couldn’t help but say it with a stronger tone.
“……Eh?”
“If everything you just said is true, then you are not responsible for anything.”
“W-well, that may be so, but I also say that the person being bullied is also responsible for the bullying……”
“No, since I’m saying that Kohime is not responsible, Kohime is definitely not responsible.”
“……”
“What’s wrong?”
“Ah, no, I didn’t think Eita san would make such a statement, so it was unexpected.”
My blood was rushing to my head as I listened to Kohime’s story, and my words were so smug that even I was surprised.
If I say she’s not responsible, where is the basis for saying that Kokorohime isn’t responsible…
“…Sorry, the blood was rushing to my head.”
“Fufu. I was very encouraged by what Eita san just said.”
“I’m glad to hear that. Just hearing what you just said made the blood rush to my head. It’s amazing how Kohime has been able to endure for four years.”
“No, but I couldn’t make any friends because of that…”
“There’s no need to be friends with people like that.”
“Maybe so. I have one regret, though,…….”
After saying that, Kohime’s expression clouded and she started talking about her regrets.
“Regret?
“I wasn’t able to introduce my friend to my mother. Just before she passed away, I told her. [School is really fun because I’m surrounded by good friends. So don’t worry.] I felt guilty for lying to her, and to tell the truth, I wished I could have taken my friend with me to reassure her.”
How heartbreaking it must have been for her to tell such a lie to her mother, who was about to draw her last breath at any moment.
While I can understand the heartache of Kohime’s desire not to leave her mother worrying even with such a lie, it must have been immeasurably painful to live with the guilt of having to lie and the regret of not being able to introduce her friend to her mother.
I naturally thought that I wanted to stay close to Kohime for a long time to come.
“I see…….. But you already have a friend, don’t you?”
“…..Eh?”
“I’m your friend, of course, right? Besides, you made friends with Kento and Hanai today, didn’t you?”
“Eita san is indeed my friend, but from Kento san’s point of view, it was his first time meeting me…..”
“What are you talking about? Kento himself said it, right? A friend’s friend is a friend. I’m tempted to go into this with any kind of positive theory, but aren’t Kento and Hanai already Kohime’s friends?”
“…That’s right. Kento san and Hanai san have kindly accepted me and are very nice people, and I’m sure they consider me a friend from the bottom of their hearts.”
“Yeah. So, next time we’re all going to say hello to Kohime’s mother. I will say that I’m always grateful for Kohime’s support.”
“……Mom will be so happy !”
There were tears in Kohime’s eyes as she said that.
That’s probably why she put up with the bullying and was suffering from lying to her mother.
I think the person who is most happy about having a friend is not Kohime’s mother, but Kohime herself, who is now able to introduce her friend to her mother.
“Anyway, you’re nearing your limit, so if you’re having a hard time, take it easy and take some time off from school.”
“…….Fufu. You say the same thing as my father.”
“Everyone is worried about you, Kohime.”
“Oh, about today’s story, I don’t want you to tell my father about it. I don’t want him to worry…….”
“Okay. Is there anything I can do?”
“No, it’s fine. I’m sure I can do my best again now that I have a friend and with the words that Eita san said to me. If something happens, I will ask for your help.”
“Okay. Feel free to talk to me anytime.”
“Um, can I ask you for one thing?”
“Yeah. Anything.”
“I want to know more about you, Eita san.”
“About me?”
Having said that, I decided to take Kohime to a certain place later.
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